So, it has been awhile, hasn't it? I've been so damn busy lately and I just want it to stop, which it won't >_>.

In the past month I'v worked on three giant paintings, for exhibits and as back-drops of plays which has been cutting out on my own time to draw what I enjoy drawing, poo e.e.

This week is also opening night for the play that I'm in "up the down stair case" which I'm hoping will be pulled together as right now half the people don't know their lines and I've had to save people countless times. Oh yes, opening night is actually Thursday and today was our last practice.


Socialy I feel like I'm completly alone even though I have many friends. It has alot to do with my bestfriend and I 'growing apart'. I don't like to call it that, I'd prefure to think it is just because she is busy...but I spent about two ours in the tub
thinking it all over and I guess most of it is due to the fact that we are at different points in our lives. Points that make us very different even though the age difference is only two years. I'd like to think it is just a passing feeling but, I don't know. I look around at my other friends and I can't help but feel that if I lose my bestfriend than I'll have nothing left. She has been there all my life, knows the most about me and I trust her. I have a hard time telling people things, even those who I've known for a long time, but with her, I don't. Its really depressing to think what is happening.


Also, I've found that I can't wait to move to Toronto, can't wait to get my own place and can't wait to start design school. I've been looking up information about different schools but I haven't found one that I really think suits what I'm going in to. Um, so, if you know any good schools for fashion design in Toronto, I'd love to hear them and some information them aswell n.n.