Yeah. things like this happen. D: I usually get this with Trades. it's also why I'm a bit jittery about trades most of the time. DX

Well it just unnerves me because I feel I'm letting a ton of people down. All because I can't meet their standards...

Naaah. If those ton of people are good people. they'll definately forgive you for it. If they were Jerks, then they'd probably be mad at you. what I'm saying is, is to ignore the jerks as best you can. *pats*

Well I can only blame myself, nobody is a jerk and I'm not calling anyone one. I can only blame myself in the end of it all...

mm.. I don't think you did anything wrong. honestly... I mean, busyness is inevitable when it comes up. Don't blame yourself. it's not your fault for anything.

Well, if you've already been paid and can't return the money, then as far as guilt goes you should probably get those out of the way whenever you have the time/motivation.

You never said you were taking requests from what I can tell, so you're not really obligated to do those. You're too amazing to keep track of that; there are just too many...

Nobody has paid me for any commissions, I feel I should do the sketches, show them, then accept payment. So it is only myself that I can blame. Life gives me turn after turn, things keep happening keeping me from these things. Even as we speak, I have a busy day planned for tomorrow. Working outside and what not. On top of that art block has set in making things hard for me to draw out

You don't have much to blame yourself for... sounds more like your job and life to me. Don't blame yourself for things you don't really have much control over =|

Well, given I in some part started this, I can say that your feelings of let down are in some ways correct for you have at least left me hanging without knowing if you will ever get around to doing that commission you said you would do. I know you have your troubles in life, we all do, but if you are going to commit to someones project then you are obliged to do it or tell them why you cannot do the project anymore or why the long delay. It is only a minor thing but its only respectful and most people if you tell them your going to pull out (especially if no money has been exchanged) will be kind about it. I know I will if you wish to drop me, yes I will be disappointed but its is your life and art I think should come in third or fourth to the real things in life.

Alright then, best solution for it, it isn't a commission, request, no need to pay. However, since it is now a request I'll take my time on it. Because A. I'm not in the mood of dealing with the stress that will be coming from it all, I need time to just adjust around. B. I'll admit I've taken a while trying to get things worked out, but when I said ASAP that means whenever I can get to it. I try to do some nice things for friends everywhere, yet I get scared to do things because of people wanting this and that. So just forget about it being a commission, it is on the request list, end of story. Anyway it was a request if I'm not mistaken so never sat right with me charging you for it in the first place *Shrugs* Sound good or if not, eh, no harm in offering I guess

A. Not trying to cause you any stress and I'm well aware that you need you time. B. As Soon As Possible dose not mean forever and if a person is inquiring when you will get around to something I don't quite see the harm in it (I did after all wait a month without complaint and I don't think I was being mean, if so I apologize). C. Yes, it was a Commission Request to hire you for your talent which you agreed to do, however if you wish to make it into a request without payment then I gladly accept, but would have prefer to pay you for your efforts as your work justly deserves. Once more I do apologize for any inconvenience I may have caused you with my pestering questions and hope that at some date you are able to find the time to get around to me.

Well one thing that should be thought of is, nobody is truly hurt. Granted feelings might have gotten hurt, but just move on in life. I go by a saying here, it is, you've lived this long without my art you can live longer without it. Material goods shouldn't be used like little tokens of hey you deserve this or that. I know you wanted to pay me, but just I don't understand why people should just get pissed over something so trivial as this >.< It isn't like I took your money. I've been trying to get these images done for you, but every darn time I sit down to start working something new comes up. Then I get into drawing others things and I get so darn scared to post...why do you think it takes me so long to put stuff up here. I fear what people are going to say, I know someone is getting pissed at me for some reason or another. This all just proves my thoughts right here...You know I waited a year for an image...if I person can't be patient with me, then I have no patience for anything at that matter. I swear everyone is just rush rush rush, hurry hurry hurry. Not like I'm holding you down for your money, I've got bigger things to worry about and with that said, I'm not going to be a happy camper, so just let it all go. If you want to commission in the future, go ahead. Just I have too much on my plate to worry about trivial stuff as this. Bad enough I have to close the darn commissions down too now >.<