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Once again same shit as always!!!
15 years ago
Can't talk to him, cause he never wants to talk to me, can't even try and argue with him cause he runs away from it by logging on me, cant do anything. be careful baby you might just get what you wish for.. lets see just how much you really do want to keep me around..
Hiroshi Fox
You've given him a million chances and his true colors always show through.
Last night I was extremely exhausted from work, I didn't get a lunch for a 12 hour shift, and since I stayed at your house the night before and we stayed up till two so we could go see a movie you really wanted to see, then i wake up at 5:30 just so i could drive an hour home to get to work on time, I wanted to be left alone for a bit to just relax and have some personal time. I called like i said i would right after i got off, then i wanted to just go take a bath and you kept calling and messaging me, because you wanted to talk about what is wrong with our relationship. Then I message you back and I explained i was extremely tired and would like a little bit of time to myself and you just kept wanting to talk. so i logged.
You say I have improved and I know I have, but every time we are doing fine you seem to find something else that i have to fix about myself to make me the way you want me to be and its really tiring. It is really starting to wear me out and if what i wised for and ave been working for id be the happiest person on the face of the earth.
P.S. I am really tired of fuck-tards thinking they know what is going on in someone else's relationship when they only hear one side of the story. people need to stop crawling up others peoples asses and worry about their own shit.
Let me quote this hun
"Then you drag my name through the mud as well, by talking shit to everyone about me even though I am not the one that has betrayed our relationship several times. I ask simple things because i do not need much, don't talk to people that are trying to break us up, don't cheat, and don't badmouth me, a few simple things i have asked and they have all been broken."
since you already threw it out there i don't see how explaining my actions there can hurt, It's not like I am directly talking about you, I don't say your name or nothing I just say what I feel, and the reason i say them is cause when i cant talk to you, you said it your self that leaves no one to talk to but my self.. well i cant just talk to my self cause i do that enough,. But as it goes for Cheating No I have never cheated on you, I have done things I am not proud of Yes undoubtedly I hate my self for them, Like the first thing Ever did was slept with someone about 2 weeks after we broke up, For that I am sorry, I was in a real bad emotional state and well it went to far for that I apologized for on numerous occasions and I told you about it before we got back together. The next 2 things was Role-played on line with someone, Again I am really ashamed of this and really sorry for this, I told you when it happened because I could not hide that from you. I done nothing but try and tell you everything, and Honestly the only reason it even went that far is cause well in that aspect of the relationship I'm feeling more or less really neglected and unwanted, I am really sorry bout all this I really am I spend everyday punishing my self for all these things I have done to you. The Last thing that I did was I did not tell you about a old friend coming over, When I should have and again I am really sorry, i was really afraid you would be really upset with me cause he showed up on short notice its not like I planned it. I am sorry for that as well, and still to this day I beat my self up over those situations that I have done to you.. Honestly I never would have guessed my self to do something like that I cant forgive my self for it. I Love you with all my heart, It scared me and made me really confused.. Now I know this is no excuse for what I done, im not making any either. That is what I did to you (but only cause I felt unwanted and really well un appreciated.) but in any way I am Extremely sorry for doing those things to you trust me I am not going to forgive my self, But What I am asking is that you once and for all let those things lay and please forgive me. I have done thing but try and make up for them, why do they keep coming up.. Please baby I love you a lot. you do try to do things for me but on the other hand if I get upset about something you throw all that back in my face acting like you did it only cause I wanted you to and it was not something that you did from your heart. If you do something for me, You should not throw it back in my face when we fight cause that just says you never really wanted to to it in the first place. I just want to always be honest with you now and Always, When you don't listen to me and think I'm just being a child or a immature Lil jerk and dont take what I say for what it is it really hurts and really upsets me. I really Hate to be ignored specially by you. and that happens alot, maybe not in your dictionary but in the literal sense of the word, Logging when I'm trying to talk to you, not talking when I try and talk to you, acting like you don't want to be here. (not being intimately interested) to me makes me feel like you are either really detached or just plainly not interested in me any more..