So i made it through April, and now mother's day is yesterday... Go figure i forgot it was so close to that day. I guess it's just time for me to go ahead and just curl up in another ball. Yes my heart still hurts, always will, even if i have gotten better at coping. Having the day off again will make it easier i guess but harder at the same time. Instead of having something else to focus on like work, helping people get their ineternets back on, i'll be at home, online most likely, and/or listing to the raido hearing about mother's day, and still feeling left out because i got robbed. Yeah easier said than done when you all tell me not to think about it. It's been easy to ignore all the baby pictures that pop up on the sides with the advertisements about "cute babyu pictures" but even harder when every game i play here on face book talks about sending mother's day presents, when i know most people who loose their first born child are going to feel left out because most peopel forget about what they went through... I guess that's something esle to think about for alot of people who don't know. Parents who lost their very first child and havn't been lucky enough to have a second one, usualy tend to get left out on days like Mother's day and father's day because most people dont want to either A. THink about it or B. Forget that they did at one poibnt in time Have a child, even if it was not born... But i guess it's time for me to stop feeling sorry for my loss and just accet that it happend and move on. Yeah ... again easier said than done.... I guess what im trying to say is this mother's day, dont just focus on the women out there that have children, stop and think about the ones out there who werent as lucky to have their's make it through to have a chance at life. Show those mother's out there who have lost a child that they havnt been forgotten on the day that celebrates the scarifices that EVERY single mother in the world makes. the 9 months they spend carrying their children.