I haven't updated my gallery in months, and have been swamped with work and real life distractions that have eliminated most of my free time that I used to devote to lounging around in my drawers and trying to draw all the odd kinky ideas I have in my head.

It's been a mixed bag - on one hand it's been sad, because I really do enjoy drawing and writing, and not having an outlet for these thoughts in my head gives me a case of mental blue balls. However, the silver lining has been that with my limited free time, I'm forced to put a value on all my kinks and ask myself which ones give me the most overall satisfaction.

I've been with my mate for coming on 9 years now, and I realize that the pursuit of some of my kinks has made it harder to interface on a real-life level. I mean, I love soft vore, but the logistics of acting it out in real life is pretty complicated (not that I haven't thought about that a lot, heh)

My focus right now is to start putting more energy into things to play with my mate and other folks in real life. Fursuits has been. and likely always will be, my number one interest. It plays into so many of my other kinks - trasformation, vore, inflation, embarassment, sissification, and role-play of bouncy toony critters. I'm finding that the more energy I put into suiting up and playing out a scene, whether playing dom or sub, really helps me be comfortable with interfacing with my kinks in real life.

I've realized that for so many years, I was working to become comfortable with getting off in front of a computer. When it came time to interact with people, even when they had the same interests as me, it was awkward and uncomfortable and I had a hard time really getting into it. It sucked, especially when I considered how much of my life I devoted to pursuing my sexuality and how little I was enjoying sharing it because it made me feel uncomfortable.

A lot of that is because I'm less interested in the physical side of sex and more in the headspace aspects of it. For a time, I had resigned myself to never really enjoying physical contact, but now I've come to realize that the physical side is an integral part of creating the headspace. It's annoying that it took me so long to figure that out, but better late than never ;)

So what does this mean for my FA (and DA) accounts? Probably just that I'll be drawing less and making fursuits more. Now that being said, I do want to try and incorporate some of my favorite ideas into fursuits...like pink cutesy fursuits or inflated or plushie-style costumes, but everything will be, for the most part, a way to integrate my ideas and desire for that perfect headspace into a format that I can better interact with my mate and all the wonderful people I meet in the fandom who share the same loves and passions as me. It'd be lonely otherwise.