blehhhh sue didnt get home till late and it fucked over my plans bad. so i didnt get anything done that i was hopeing to. i got home around 3pm , im tired , im still pukeing and it sucks cause there is nothing left for me to puke lololololool. right now im used to it , the only problem im haveing is that i cant lay down all the way and that my stomach feels hungry XD. ummm i want to start drawing again ,i have some trades im trying to do , but yeah im just feelin real lazy. im hopeing to get a nap in. i have to watch bu ( my baby sister) by myself tomorrow , i have to be up at 8 :/

the help part

also , ive been meaning to make a journal , but i dont want it to be all baw baw baw baw baw , but i have a serious illments , and medications and electro-therpy just arent options right now , all self help websites is to have your 'trust-buddy' ( i have my main one and two others ) at hand and to have a support group. they dont need to have the same exact problems as me. its just someone to talk to with similar symptoms. also looking for someone between the ages of 18-40 , people that really have these problems. id need your aim or msn and wed need to talk , alot and be friends. ha ha. it seems like ill have better luck talking about it here. ( on DA ill get about 60 14 year olds thinking they have the same problem as me )
i have trauma induced schizophrenia , my symptoms go as fallows. severe psychosis , anxiety and paranoia . those are the main ones that well , im looking to connect too. my goal is to lessen the severity of my attacks since its spiked dramatically in the last 5 years , id like them to settle down to mild , short , and less traumatic