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15 years ago
I don't particularly feel like going to sleep right now.
It's nearly 2 AM, which means that my brother's funeral is in a bit more than twelve hours.
My mother is sobbing aloud, which is not unexpected in the circumstances. I think I can hear my father trying to comfort her.
My mind is racing at double-speed. Oddly enough, that's what it does when it gets short on sleep and blood-sugar... I know it's time to sleep.
But this room where I can sleep, you know, it's too damn hot and I'm too damn worked up about everything.
God damn it all to hell, there's nothing I can do and that's worse than any death in the family.
It's nearly 2 AM, which means that my brother's funeral is in a bit more than twelve hours.
My mother is sobbing aloud, which is not unexpected in the circumstances. I think I can hear my father trying to comfort her.
My mind is racing at double-speed. Oddly enough, that's what it does when it gets short on sleep and blood-sugar... I know it's time to sleep.
But this room where I can sleep, you know, it's too damn hot and I'm too damn worked up about everything.
God damn it all to hell, there's nothing I can do and that's worse than any death in the family.
But you can keep on living as best you can, and you can help the ones you love do so as well.
You've lost a lot, and you're feeling one of the worst pains a person can feel.
But you're still alive, and so are people that you care for.
A lot of injuries can't heal until after they've finished bleeding. So let it out as you need, and then make sure you and those you love can heal.
None of us can really offer you anything but sympathy,
But please know that we're offering as much of it as we can.