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The fandom and internet creep me out at times.
15 years ago
I mean, I can handle really strange art, really strange pictures, and really strange things said.
But what people do on the internet to others steels me.
I suppose you should pardon me--
I grew up with a lot of media, a lot of internet. I'm almost exanimate about every story I hear-- I don't immediately assume it's true, I don't immediately believe it's provable, and I know that some stories are too complex to just take a mental shortcut. I've been in a variety of life situations, and none of them are as bad as those of others.
Though I have such a past, I still find the forces of nature on the internet fearsome.
Swells of people who beat down upon others. Waves of people suffocating swimmers in an ocean of preconceptions. Thunder from the darkness-- from those you trust. Thunder striking at your heart. A terror bolt exposing your soft earth for all to see. Thunder built up by the electricity of goading and clique discussions to strike at you through an old friend. A deafening echo that only beats back to you what you say to it. An echo that never changes its mocking tone.
The internet is a very dangerous place.
It's for many reasons like this that I remain in awe and suspense of what I say and do anywhere. There are so many whose first response to drama is to announce their lies and slander to everyone. There are those who would take a sordid past and turn it into blackmail money. I have so little personal history, but what I have I suppose I will drag to my grave.
Because of this, I try to live my life with as few regrets as possible.
I know that they are ammunition for cutthroats.
My experiences have made me less eager to point the finger. My mom used to say that if everybody in the class but me is throwing stuff at the teacher, I'd be the only one caught for the blame. It's made me realize how heavy the head is that wears the crown. And, it's made me unlikely to fight someone else's battles.
I'm not interested in 'white knighting'. It's moreso mobbing, to me.
And that's the terrifying force of nature of the internet-- its righteous Crusades and blind crusaders.
Edit:
Billy Joel - Shades of Grey
But what people do on the internet to others steels me.
I suppose you should pardon me--
I grew up with a lot of media, a lot of internet. I'm almost exanimate about every story I hear-- I don't immediately assume it's true, I don't immediately believe it's provable, and I know that some stories are too complex to just take a mental shortcut. I've been in a variety of life situations, and none of them are as bad as those of others.
Though I have such a past, I still find the forces of nature on the internet fearsome.
Swells of people who beat down upon others. Waves of people suffocating swimmers in an ocean of preconceptions. Thunder from the darkness-- from those you trust. Thunder striking at your heart. A terror bolt exposing your soft earth for all to see. Thunder built up by the electricity of goading and clique discussions to strike at you through an old friend. A deafening echo that only beats back to you what you say to it. An echo that never changes its mocking tone.
The internet is a very dangerous place.
It's for many reasons like this that I remain in awe and suspense of what I say and do anywhere. There are so many whose first response to drama is to announce their lies and slander to everyone. There are those who would take a sordid past and turn it into blackmail money. I have so little personal history, but what I have I suppose I will drag to my grave.
Because of this, I try to live my life with as few regrets as possible.
I know that they are ammunition for cutthroats.
My experiences have made me less eager to point the finger. My mom used to say that if everybody in the class but me is throwing stuff at the teacher, I'd be the only one caught for the blame. It's made me realize how heavy the head is that wears the crown. And, it's made me unlikely to fight someone else's battles.
I'm not interested in 'white knighting'. It's moreso mobbing, to me.
And that's the terrifying force of nature of the internet-- its righteous Crusades and blind crusaders.
Edit:
Billy Joel - Shades of Grey
I think White Knighting for a group of people who will never change is stupid. The fandom won't change at all so why defend it? Are you trying to give yourself a false sense of honour and satisfaction...?
...i went on a tangent. Sorry.
Are you going to AC...like EVERYBODY ELSE...except me? xD
I don't think I can trust people anymore to complete trust, either.
When I say things like that, it's silly, though. When I trust people, I'm an open book-- I just never volunteer deep problems I'd want them to hear.
I'm going to AC, yes-- I'll post a journal about it later. I read that last sentence, hoping you were going :(
Trolls white knight all the time...thought they are retarded at it, most people are.
In an unrelated note:
I really hope to meet you someday. You sound extremely level headed, intelligent, nice and can draw a mean transformation comic. :D
Thanks for the compliment, I appreciate that. <:3
Your welcome on the highly overdue compliment. Seems that there are only a few, like 1% of us, that don't hang on the tiny things and when a majot issue starts to bug us, we bloody say if. IT IS CALLED BLUNT HONESTY FURRIES! D:<
Now. I become much more quiet, just browsing around these days lol I'm still kinda afraid to post stuff I like or into. I chat with friends I known for some time & even share stuff I have yet too upload.
Though I did made profiles of my characters on a place that listed on my My species Distinctive features journal.
People seldom listen to, 'Calm down!' or "Why are you going bananas over this?"
People always find things they go ape-shit over ape-shit-worthy :/ (I suppose that's the defining characteristic.. haha ;S )
It's nice to hear from you on this, Rina. Thanks :O
The old saying "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say it at all" doesn't seem to work on the internet, unfortunately. :( Even saying something nice will upset some people somewhere.
Imagine if you commented on something and then an ex-friend revealed something very personal and damning from your past .. and then the argument would revolve around what a terrible person you are for what you've been said to have done. 8|
(Raises glass to SoreThumb)
To sanity!
(Drinks sake)
But yes the anonymity (sp?) of the Internet makes it a disturbing cross section of the human psyche :/ which is far darker & more primative than I think society would like to believe.
Not fun to think of ex-friends being dicks.
never forget that there are a few good eggs mixed in there as well, theyre just a little harder to find :)