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.: BATTING DEMONS :. (Part I)
15 years ago
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WISDOM IS LEARNED & CANNOT BE TAIGHT! .: TO WHOM IT MAY CONCERN AND TO THOSE WHO TRULY CARE :.
I just wanted to apologize and say I'm sorry to all my friends and any "decent" fur folk (yeah the decent ones, some of you are creeps and fucking monsters in my eyes, no lies), for being insulting, rude, arrogant, possesive, dismissive, aggressive, violent tempered, anti-social, narrow minded (one track mind), and of course last but not least, SELFISH! Did I forget any negative emotions or character traits? *sigh* Listen, nobody lives a perfect life, everyone has their own sorrows and issues to deal, with so I tend to do my best and not complain (to the best of my ability), about my troubles anymore...so what's with the melodrama, then Scootch? Well, I just wanted to let everyone know that I realize I been a real fucking dick to the only people who do care, my friends! I will have to reintroduce myself to everyone once I'm able to rise up from my ashes like the Phoenix! At least that's the plan...I sure as hell ain't looking to go out like River Phoenix, that's for sure. That's why I'm waging a war within my own mind slaughtering all the demons I can, once I expose the weakest link the X-FACTOR it's fucking game over for self enslavement and game on for self empowerment! There is still more to be done and there are many songs unsung. Many people meet, many people to greet and some even to befriend. I just ask that everyone understand and respect the fact, that know I can be and have real a fucking dick and sometimes still I will have my bad days, but they are now numbered.
No more transference of my disappointments and sorrows upon others. Even I can't hate the world forever it seems, being a hollow shell makes you easy to crack! This is unacceptable and I will not tolerate having any weaknesses any longer!
SERIOUSLY, I'M STARTING TO FEEL...EMOTIONS AGAIN!
MY APATHY IS GONE, BUT MY PAIN IS CONSTANT AND SEVERE.
I'M NOT GIVING IN! THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS FEAR!
MAYBE A BEER WITH STRANGERS, OR A FEW TUGS OF SOME NUGS WITH BUDS.
BUT THAT BITCH IN THE SKY WHO SAID IT'S ALRIGHT & PEACE IS IN SIGHT, FUCKING LIED!
I'VE SEEN THE BLOOD RUN FROM THE WALLS AND THE DEMONS WAIL.
AND THE OLD MAN, THAT MEAN MOTHERFUCKER!
FILTHY & SINISTER HE'LL TAKE YOUR PAIN AWAY,
UNTIL IT'S TOO LATE AND IT'S THE ONLY WAY!
LITTLE BY LITTLE, HE DESTROYS THE DEMONS WITHIN HIM.
THE MAN-BOY ASKS ONLY FOR FORGIVNESS,
HE WAS PUSHED TOO FAR, FILLED WITH STRESS ONLY FEW CAN RELATE.
HE DECIDES TO PUSH BACK, BUT HE'S ALL ALONE,
FOR GOD'S SAKE TOSS SCOOTCH A BONE, WHILE HE RESURRECTS HIS HEART OF STONE.
ONE GOAT FOR THE GLORY OF HEAVEN
ONE GOAT FOR THE CHAOS OF HELL
SO THANK YOU, BUT NO...
I'VE BEEN EVERYWHERE ONE COULD GO,
SEEN EVERYTHING ONE COULD KNOW,
NOT REALLY A NEED FOR SUBSTANCES ANYMORE.
BTW, I had like an enormous journal entry at first and this is my fourth attempt. It was just way too long and way too personal and I just decided to post this abridged journal, but it does have a story about me and a slave's art who I ever so admire,
i'm gonna give it up, i'm sooooo fucking tired! hehe!!
Don't like my poetry? That's okay post a negative comment anyway.
I DON'T MIND SAYING FUCK YOU, TO YOU ANYWAY! haha!!!
:p
AGAIN SORRY TO MY FURENDS AND TO THOSE LOVE'S LOST.
YOU'RE STILL IN MY THOUGHTS! LIKE HOW A FLAME ATTRACTS A MOTH...
...I WAS BLINDED, THEN YOU BURNED MY HEART....
always with the sparks...muwhahahahaha!!!
I just wanted to apologize and say I'm sorry to all my friends and any "decent" fur folk (yeah the decent ones, some of you are creeps and fucking monsters in my eyes, no lies), for being insulting, rude, arrogant, possesive, dismissive, aggressive, violent tempered, anti-social, narrow minded (one track mind), and of course last but not least, SELFISH! Did I forget any negative emotions or character traits? *sigh* Listen, nobody lives a perfect life, everyone has their own sorrows and issues to deal, with so I tend to do my best and not complain (to the best of my ability), about my troubles anymore...so what's with the melodrama, then Scootch? Well, I just wanted to let everyone know that I realize I been a real fucking dick to the only people who do care, my friends! I will have to reintroduce myself to everyone once I'm able to rise up from my ashes like the Phoenix! At least that's the plan...I sure as hell ain't looking to go out like River Phoenix, that's for sure. That's why I'm waging a war within my own mind slaughtering all the demons I can, once I expose the weakest link the X-FACTOR it's fucking game over for self enslavement and game on for self empowerment! There is still more to be done and there are many songs unsung. Many people meet, many people to greet and some even to befriend. I just ask that everyone understand and respect the fact, that know I can be and have real a fucking dick and sometimes still I will have my bad days, but they are now numbered.
No more transference of my disappointments and sorrows upon others. Even I can't hate the world forever it seems, being a hollow shell makes you easy to crack! This is unacceptable and I will not tolerate having any weaknesses any longer!
SERIOUSLY, I'M STARTING TO FEEL...EMOTIONS AGAIN!
MY APATHY IS GONE, BUT MY PAIN IS CONSTANT AND SEVERE.
I'M NOT GIVING IN! THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS FEAR!
MAYBE A BEER WITH STRANGERS, OR A FEW TUGS OF SOME NUGS WITH BUDS.
BUT THAT BITCH IN THE SKY WHO SAID IT'S ALRIGHT & PEACE IS IN SIGHT, FUCKING LIED!
I'VE SEEN THE BLOOD RUN FROM THE WALLS AND THE DEMONS WAIL.
AND THE OLD MAN, THAT MEAN MOTHERFUCKER!
FILTHY & SINISTER HE'LL TAKE YOUR PAIN AWAY,
UNTIL IT'S TOO LATE AND IT'S THE ONLY WAY!
LITTLE BY LITTLE, HE DESTROYS THE DEMONS WITHIN HIM.
THE MAN-BOY ASKS ONLY FOR FORGIVNESS,
HE WAS PUSHED TOO FAR, FILLED WITH STRESS ONLY FEW CAN RELATE.
HE DECIDES TO PUSH BACK, BUT HE'S ALL ALONE,
FOR GOD'S SAKE TOSS SCOOTCH A BONE, WHILE HE RESURRECTS HIS HEART OF STONE.
ONE GOAT FOR THE GLORY OF HEAVEN
ONE GOAT FOR THE CHAOS OF HELL
SO THANK YOU, BUT NO...
I'VE BEEN EVERYWHERE ONE COULD GO,
SEEN EVERYTHING ONE COULD KNOW,
NOT REALLY A NEED FOR SUBSTANCES ANYMORE.
BTW, I had like an enormous journal entry at first and this is my fourth attempt. It was just way too long and way too personal and I just decided to post this abridged journal, but it does have a story about me and a slave's art who I ever so admire,
i'm gonna give it up, i'm sooooo fucking tired! hehe!!
Don't like my poetry? That's okay post a negative comment anyway.
I DON'T MIND SAYING FUCK YOU, TO YOU ANYWAY! haha!!!
:p
AGAIN SORRY TO MY FURENDS AND TO THOSE LOVE'S LOST.
YOU'RE STILL IN MY THOUGHTS! LIKE HOW A FLAME ATTRACTS A MOTH...
...I WAS BLINDED, THEN YOU BURNED MY HEART....
always with the sparks...muwhahahahaha!!!
