So, I now have 2 associates degrees. One in "Game Art", and one in "Computer Science". I am very close to graduating with both bachelors degrees as well, but... I feel lonely, and I find myself wishing I had someone to share my fortune and good luck with. Its been so hard, but I am finally making it happen, and I know I should be happy.. But I'm just not. Every other day is some new drama with a couple of my closer friends, and one of em either ignores me or just doesn't even try to respond. Why do people think so deeply into things when its not needed? I find it very hard to keep trying to be friends with people who say they care, but rarely show it.

I am going home next week, and I am hoping all goes okay and my family doesn't act like my family. I really don't wanna deal with the fighting an arguing. But I digress, I must simply accept the things I cannot change. I wont ever have a good friendship with Terry nor will I ever get him back, I will never be able to give a certain person what she wants from me, I wont ever live up to my fathers expectations or my grandfathers achievements, I may never find that special someone, and last but not least, I will never be able to make right what I did so very wrong so long ago.

These are things I cannot change, but I can at least accept that this is my life, and I have to live it.