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15 years ago
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I've been real depressed lately. For the past month or so my parents have been arguing nonstop. They've been together for 28 years and while they've had disagreements, it's never been like this. My dad has moved into the basement office and they're hardly talking now. I've heard my mom crying a lot, which really bothers me because she almost never cries. The only other time I've seen her cry is when we had to put our dog down.
I've talked to them both and it seems like my Dad "isn't happy where his life and his marriage are." My sister talked to my mom and she apparently begged my Dad to stay with her. So I guess my Dad is just bored with the marriage. I really hope this doesn't mean he's seeing somebody else. I don't know what to do. This is really between my parents. They've both made it clear that it's nothing my sister and I have done. I don't know if there's anything I can do.
My sister has been taking it real hard. She drove out to a party last night and got real shit-faced (she's under the legal age, by the way). I got a call from her around 1am and had to drive her home. I'm glad she called instead of trying to drive home drunk, since he has wrecked a friend's car before while drunk. She cried the whole way home saying she couldn't stop thinking about mom and dad drifting apart. They always seemed real happy together. Maybe I just couldn't see it?
Job hunting is the same ecstatic affair. All the publishing world is in a flux right now and what few jobs there are aren't going to go to greenhorns like me. They're going to rehire the people who had lost their jobs...you know, people with experience.
You could say I was dealt a real shitty hand with the economy of the entire western hemisphere doing a nosedive just months before graduation, but I can't keep blaming everything that happens to me on external circumstance. I majored in Creative Writing and Art, what kind of skills do I put on a resume? I know the alphabet! I can file things!! My birthday this year happened to be the same date that I graduated and while I was celebrating with friends over and cake and all, I couldn't help feel real depressed that night. It was one year since I entered the real world and I'm still living with my parents working 20 hours a week for $7.50.
I guess I should be happy I have anything at all.
For years, I just blindly accepted the idea that if I went to college and got a degree, I could get a job right out of school. It might not be my dream job, but I could certainly work my way up. But now, I can't even get an internship.
Maybe I should go back to school and get a degree in something useful?
I'm sorry to be so whiney. Please forgive me.
"Sad are only those who understand." - Arab proverb
I've been real depressed lately. For the past month or so my parents have been arguing nonstop. They've been together for 28 years and while they've had disagreements, it's never been like this. My dad has moved into the basement office and they're hardly talking now. I've heard my mom crying a lot, which really bothers me because she almost never cries. The only other time I've seen her cry is when we had to put our dog down.
I've talked to them both and it seems like my Dad "isn't happy where his life and his marriage are." My sister talked to my mom and she apparently begged my Dad to stay with her. So I guess my Dad is just bored with the marriage. I really hope this doesn't mean he's seeing somebody else. I don't know what to do. This is really between my parents. They've both made it clear that it's nothing my sister and I have done. I don't know if there's anything I can do.
My sister has been taking it real hard. She drove out to a party last night and got real shit-faced (she's under the legal age, by the way). I got a call from her around 1am and had to drive her home. I'm glad she called instead of trying to drive home drunk, since he has wrecked a friend's car before while drunk. She cried the whole way home saying she couldn't stop thinking about mom and dad drifting apart. They always seemed real happy together. Maybe I just couldn't see it?
Job hunting is the same ecstatic affair. All the publishing world is in a flux right now and what few jobs there are aren't going to go to greenhorns like me. They're going to rehire the people who had lost their jobs...you know, people with experience.
You could say I was dealt a real shitty hand with the economy of the entire western hemisphere doing a nosedive just months before graduation, but I can't keep blaming everything that happens to me on external circumstance. I majored in Creative Writing and Art, what kind of skills do I put on a resume? I know the alphabet! I can file things!! My birthday this year happened to be the same date that I graduated and while I was celebrating with friends over and cake and all, I couldn't help feel real depressed that night. It was one year since I entered the real world and I'm still living with my parents working 20 hours a week for $7.50.
I guess I should be happy I have anything at all.
For years, I just blindly accepted the idea that if I went to college and got a degree, I could get a job right out of school. It might not be my dream job, but I could certainly work my way up. But now, I can't even get an internship.
Maybe I should go back to school and get a degree in something useful?
I'm sorry to be so whiney. Please forgive me.
"Sad are only those who understand." - Arab proverb
Jobs are hard to come by now a days. I really should start looking... acually.
As for your family... yeah i can see where it'd be hard. *hugs more.* Hope things work out.
And you have my support as a friend.
Your Moosie is here for ya.
Sorry to hear about your parents...I really have no idea what that would be like, since my parents never married to begin with. But my mate got to see his mom go through divorce so I can sort of understand by proxy. I hope whatever happens you can make it through all right.
And believe me I can indeed understand about the job thing. I too took classes in Creative Writing and got a degree in English...which is at the same time one of the most useless and most versatile degrees out there. There's a lot I could do with it but it all either requires other experience I don't have, or is something I'm not interested in. I still intend to get my writing published but until then I'm stuck working minimum wage at a bookstore. Again, I am grateful to have a job at all (especially with how often they've threatened to fire me), but...it's hard.
I hope things can get better for you. If you ever do need to talk, please send me a shout on YIM. Or even send me an e-mail or a note. *hugs tightly*
So while two people may not actively love each other anymore, the deep-rooted love will always remain. And while I hope that your parents don't give up on their marriage, I know how hard it is to witness such a fallout between them. I'm willing to believe that as hard as this seems, they'll come to realize that they've come so far together to just throw it all away now. Stay strong my friend! *hugs*
Incidentally, professional advice related, I'd try spinning your writing skills in a way that it looks like you're extremely good at communication. A lot of employers are looking for people with soft skills more than anything else. : )
If you ever need a shoulder, feel free to hit me up. I know I'm just some random person to you, but... sometimes it helps just to be heard. My AIM is EbonScaled--note me if you need more contact info.