Warning this post is angry and somewhat violent.

Two days ago was my aunt's birthday. We all had dinner at her house (wihch is a nice change from my grandmother's) unfortunately I had to ride with my cousin and mother.

here's the problem, last halloween there was an incident (I believe I mentioned it once) I was pissed off angry, violent and (quite frankly) mental for weeks afterwards. But eventaully I got over it. during this mental period the only people I told exactly what happened were my closest friends, and my cousin (the above cousin's daughter) Unfortunately, she has a big mouth. She told her mother and her mother found a need to discuss it with me on the drive to my aunt's. It's been over half a year and I haven't mentioned it or talked about it. I just burried it and didn't plan on digging it up again. But here comes my cousin with fucking shovel.

And then, no matter how I try to tell her "I don't want to talk about it." she just keep going. She can't take a fucking hint! I know she meant well but the woman's mouth moves faster than her brain. (of course that just runs in my family)

now it's caught in my head again the whole event replaying in my head, over and over and over again, I'm pissed off, violent, and in all honesty, I would love nothing better right now than to kick someone's ass! I thought I was over this bullshit! Guess I thought wrong....

hopefully I'll calm down soon but until then it's just me a weight set, some drawing supplies, and a computer.

thanks for taking the time out of yourr day to reasd my problems. I'm gonna go break something now.....