So life really sucks right now...i wish the furrmeet was like next week...>.> so i could get out of the house and maybe meet people...atleast people who like or are interested in me...-.- i kinda feel like a single parent right now with out any support...

-sighs-

So no one is willing to help me pay my debt to someone on here...and i feel so freaking bad...since pay pal decied to freeze my account...

get this..at the libray here i went to log on to my pay pal...and it denied me access on the libray end. So pay pal freezes my account...and now will not talk to me cause i am not on the athorrized computer...the computer screen is dead on the laptop...so pay pal will not even deal with me...-.- its like omg...so i talked to my mom...yes yes i'll do it in a moment...i talked to my brother..well...you know....blah blah blah subject change...its freaking 12 bucks people! -.-

Did i mention i have no comp of my own? did i mention everyone that ask my brother for money is getting it, but when it comes down to a 500$ laptop its well we don't have the money right now...and you are going to have to wait...my other brother gose hey i need money, and he freaking gets it...he has no job....so he lives off everyone else...i am trying to have a job...its just not working well yet...since i am so stressed ot i can't eat, i am in tears half the time...did i mention lack of any sleep? i go on like 2-3 hours of sleep..walk the almost acre backyard to feed and water the dogs..clean my ass off. and take care of my 11 month old...then get told oh you have to fucking wait. i do his fucking laundry...cause he wont and bitch about not having any clothes...we need to be cooking at the house to save money...but no one will help me move the 30 gallon snake tank...or the huge box sitting before the oven and i can't lift or move either one by myself. i spent and hour fixing holes in the hall way so the 4 cats would not be in a 2x3 ft cage...the hallway was like 102 degrees...-.- so i am hot and tired...and i am trying to relax and cool off when my brother brings my kid to me...i am dripping in sweat...and half asleep and its like so you gonna take her or what... and i was like yeah why not..its not like i am trying to cool off for five seconds...

yes i do realise she is my kid, but he wasn't doing anything...nor dose he do anything...he could have held her for ten mins so i could atleast get something to drink and try and cool down.

uggg...i feel so just like i want to be back in dallas with my mom and closer to my mate...i can't see him either this weekend...which is so nice...-.- i really could have used his help...as long as his hand is better...my eldest brother sliced his hand open while he was helping move a tv...>.> and never did say sorry...<.< but anyway...

ok i think i am done..and ready to go clean some more...no not really want to...but its better than laying in bed four hours on end.