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Don't stop the Skater boi, bathwater, but suddenly i see...
15 years ago
the party horse & cherry tree l-o-v-e mickey maneater...
I've decided I don't wake up early enough. not because I'm tired. but because other people wake up or interrupt the train of thought.
there is a kind of trance you can slip into just after you've woken up and started to work on something, like homework, your thinking is clear. your mind is at ease. you have ideas and they actually sound good or turn out well when placed on paper etc. it's actually a wonderful feeling i wish i could manifest it at will.
the problem is this 'trance' can be very fragile. the slightest interruption, or utter terror of someone, probably unintentionally ( though knowing him i don't think it was unintentional he seems to want to make my life unpleasant.), sneaking up behind you and breaking your train of thought, your trance, and suddenly the bitter sweet taste of the fight or flight reflex fills your mouth your body twitches with adrenaline your heart seems to seize your muscles burn for release.
but you can't, there is no danger to fight no fear to run from so you close your eyes and see dazzling kaleidoscope spots on the inside of your eyelids your force your breathing to regular, make your heart start beating again. your mind devoid of anything that would have helped you in your homework or what ever you had been working on.
but oh well i guess... in case you were wondering the super long title is fragments of song titles that played while I was writing this journal I thought it would be cool.
Dont stop the music by Rihanna
Skater Boi by Avril L.
Bathwater by No Doubt
suddenly i see by K.T. Tunstil
get the party started by pink
black horse & a cherry tree K.T. Tunstil
L-O-V-E by Nat King Cole
Mickey by B*witched
Maneater by Nelly
I've decided I don't wake up early enough. not because I'm tired. but because other people wake up or interrupt the train of thought.
there is a kind of trance you can slip into just after you've woken up and started to work on something, like homework, your thinking is clear. your mind is at ease. you have ideas and they actually sound good or turn out well when placed on paper etc. it's actually a wonderful feeling i wish i could manifest it at will.
the problem is this 'trance' can be very fragile. the slightest interruption, or utter terror of someone, probably unintentionally ( though knowing him i don't think it was unintentional he seems to want to make my life unpleasant.), sneaking up behind you and breaking your train of thought, your trance, and suddenly the bitter sweet taste of the fight or flight reflex fills your mouth your body twitches with adrenaline your heart seems to seize your muscles burn for release.
but you can't, there is no danger to fight no fear to run from so you close your eyes and see dazzling kaleidoscope spots on the inside of your eyelids your force your breathing to regular, make your heart start beating again. your mind devoid of anything that would have helped you in your homework or what ever you had been working on.
but oh well i guess... in case you were wondering the super long title is fragments of song titles that played while I was writing this journal I thought it would be cool.
Dont stop the music by Rihanna
Skater Boi by Avril L.
Bathwater by No Doubt
suddenly i see by K.T. Tunstil
get the party started by pink
black horse & a cherry tree K.T. Tunstil
L-O-V-E by Nat King Cole
Mickey by B*witched
Maneater by Nelly
