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15 years ago
Journal Entry It's nearly the end of the month and, unfortunately, I only have six stories completed. As posted in one of the recent stories I uploaded, I dropped the goal from 15 stories to 10 stories for the month, since they were ending up being about 4k+ words on average. Don't worry, though; I do promise that I will make sure that I write exactly 15 of the stories that have been suggested to me during July ― no more, no less. It just might be in August or September. :p
I guess a lot of the reason I've been so aloof lately when it comes to writing is that my goals and writing have really been more of a crutch than anything else, something to help guide me through the depression I've been suffering from. It's been that one goal I've made a point of sticking to in order to hold onto something.
That crutch is no longer necessary... after countless months of trying to hold onto hope, that slight glimmer grew into a dazzling sparkle, shining brightly right in front of me. My heart is beating again... and beating alongside someone else's. Someone very dear and very special to me, a long-time friend who I'm now sharing a really happy relationship with. :3
"Fluff," as I call her (as a nickname for FA), is now the little Buneary of my dreams. <3 She makes this Buizel so unbelievably happy. I'm not going to go on with all of the details or anything, but I will just say that I'm very happy right now. It's just such an indescribable feeling being truly and absolutely happy again for the first time in months...
It has taken a toll on my stories and productivity, but she is more important to me (sorry guys), and this month has been really important for our relationship. :3 I guess that's a goal that superseded my writing one. ^^; Sorry about that, but I will make up for it somehow. A happy Zeph is a good Zeph.
One thing that I'm still really worried about is that Fluff, although being a pretty big fan of Pokemon, doesn't know that I'm... well, you know, "into" it. She's not really a shiny Buneary... nor is her name really Fluff. That's just a way for me to express my adoration for her here, because I'm expressive through my art... I know that there will probably come a day that I'll need to tell her, but I'm really nervous about it... I just hope, Fluff, that if and when you do read this, you understand and love me all the same. ^^;
Yeah, well I just figured I'd give you all an update why I've been unproductive but have been changing my avatar, status, and other little details here and there lately. Hehe. :3
I guess a lot of the reason I've been so aloof lately when it comes to writing is that my goals and writing have really been more of a crutch than anything else, something to help guide me through the depression I've been suffering from. It's been that one goal I've made a point of sticking to in order to hold onto something.
That crutch is no longer necessary... after countless months of trying to hold onto hope, that slight glimmer grew into a dazzling sparkle, shining brightly right in front of me. My heart is beating again... and beating alongside someone else's. Someone very dear and very special to me, a long-time friend who I'm now sharing a really happy relationship with. :3
"Fluff," as I call her (as a nickname for FA), is now the little Buneary of my dreams. <3 She makes this Buizel so unbelievably happy. I'm not going to go on with all of the details or anything, but I will just say that I'm very happy right now. It's just such an indescribable feeling being truly and absolutely happy again for the first time in months...
It has taken a toll on my stories and productivity, but she is more important to me (sorry guys), and this month has been really important for our relationship. :3 I guess that's a goal that superseded my writing one. ^^; Sorry about that, but I will make up for it somehow. A happy Zeph is a good Zeph.
One thing that I'm still really worried about is that Fluff, although being a pretty big fan of Pokemon, doesn't know that I'm... well, you know, "into" it. She's not really a shiny Buneary... nor is her name really Fluff. That's just a way for me to express my adoration for her here, because I'm expressive through my art... I know that there will probably come a day that I'll need to tell her, but I'm really nervous about it... I just hope, Fluff, that if and when you do read this, you understand and love me all the same. ^^;
Yeah, well I just figured I'd give you all an update why I've been unproductive but have been changing my avatar, status, and other little details here and there lately. Hehe. :3
In any case, low productivity is all a part of life, and besides; your fans are here for you, not the other way around.....(at least I think that's how I should say that, bah hopefully you will get my meaning =D )
again, hopefully when she finds out/you tell her/however, things will be alright, Though I personally wouldn't worry about it. It's just a part of you, after all.
Also, I has been forever since I last posted a story. I have written like, 30 but I don't put them up.
Congrats.
Glad you found some one.
Congratulations, and I wish you luck in doing things.
And like others have said, don't worry about it, dude. Your stories are some of the best, but it's understandable, being in a relationship is more important and requires more attention than something that's a hobby, at best. XD And I'm sure that if she really does love you, she'll understand and won't try to make you stop writing or worse, break up with you. But take your time and work your way to telling her that you're into Pokemon in a sexual manner, heh. And like someone else said, maybe she's already a member on FA, but is likewise reluctant to tell you, for fear of how you'll react. Well, I wish you the best of luck in this relationship, and hope to see some new stories by you when you have the time. ^^;