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Uhhh, just saying some "final words"
15 years ago
Hello everybody.
Well...uhh... I have never shared that much from my rl here, I have always tried to avoid making drama and stuff, and as such, I have always too much pressure in me, so..hmhmm. Tomorrow is an important day for me, and I am feeling a little hopeless, so I thought I would share some words with you all.
For one... I have failed university already one time, like...got some classes failed and got exiled for one year before I could return to study, which is now, the actuallity. Pathetic, hmm? failed and got "exiled" =.=;;; not such a great Vee...
Anyways, there is a catch about coming back to studying, and that is that I can't fail any class ever until I get my degree, if I do...well, I get banned from the university, that means I won't be able to study there ever again in my lifetime. Until now, I have been able to pass the classes I failed already, I still have a last exam for one of them but the thing isn't looking so grimm....at least on those classes.
Tomorrow, at 2pm here in Chile, I have a French test to take...and I am lacking behind in French =.=;;; I have got such low scores there, like terrible, that translates in that I need a really good grade in the exam of tomorrow, grade not much people gets in the class (French is hard here =.=;;;; dunno why so much people here fails it...) so...yeah. A lot depends on this exam, a hell lot. For one, I won't be getting my chef degree, what does that mean?, that I'll have to prolong even more my parents dependance state, living with them and studying maybe another career or the same one in a far more expensive place, which...doesn't look too good, because my mom has been lying to all of my family about my failure, to protect me >>;;; but if I fail, it'll get known and I can expect my whole relatives to turn their backs to me (They are like that, people who has money but don't share and think that everyone should be perfect ><;;; ). Also, if I don't get my degree, I won't be able to get out of Chile and it's underdevelopment >>;;; I hate Chile as a place to work and live, my plans...well, a lot of people knows this already, but in the past, when I was starting in this site, I vowed
Roy that I was going to go to Canada and help him with life, sharing the friend bond we had while I got to get him to his rightful boyfriend (Supposely I was going to help him get a place for both and I would run with the bills and all with my work while we prepared for him to get to his bf), that plan was crushed a long of time ago in the meaning that now I am not going there to help him (He doesn't need the help anyways) but more I am going to go there for myself, to start a life and be happy, as Canada is a place where I can get a MUCH better life than here, in Chile, plus I would be able to finally be able to see snow falling, kinda a dream I have.
So I wouldn't be able to get out of Chile for another 2 to 4 years, considering IF I can get to study somthing, because no one is going to help me out of Chile without a degree to help me survive. Also once in Canada, I would be saving money to meet with some people, like the person I love the most,
Nast and some others, so basically my life is going to be pretty much screwed if I fail French ;_;, I...uhh...basically don't think I am going to live much longer if all goes the bad way...I don't think life would be so worth it...
Anyways...that's why I have been studying a lot in hopes I pass, fighting with every inch of my body to live and be happy, but it's...way too much info, I have been studying like 4 days straight and I still don't have memorized ALL the info (Like vocabulary in French...I have to learn 20 pages worth of vocabulary for the test ><)
So I am fully stressed, worried, hopeless and all, tired...blah, I just want this all to finish and finish in a GOOD way ><:::. So now I am going to bed, too tired from the travelling (I go to my parents' house to wash clothes, a 2:30 hours trip to their city) and from the studying.
Wish me good luck...for I don't know what will happen to me if I don't make it ><;;;;
Anyways.. goodnight to you all and take care
P.S. Sorry for all, this will be the last time I open so much in "public" =.=;;; but this was important.
EDIT :The exam finished, I am confident I did my best, but I wonder if it was good enough =,=;;;; god....I never saw so many vocabulary questions together...
Well...uhh... I have never shared that much from my rl here, I have always tried to avoid making drama and stuff, and as such, I have always too much pressure in me, so..hmhmm. Tomorrow is an important day for me, and I am feeling a little hopeless, so I thought I would share some words with you all.
For one... I have failed university already one time, like...got some classes failed and got exiled for one year before I could return to study, which is now, the actuallity. Pathetic, hmm? failed and got "exiled" =.=;;; not such a great Vee...
Anyways, there is a catch about coming back to studying, and that is that I can't fail any class ever until I get my degree, if I do...well, I get banned from the university, that means I won't be able to study there ever again in my lifetime. Until now, I have been able to pass the classes I failed already, I still have a last exam for one of them but the thing isn't looking so grimm....at least on those classes.
Tomorrow, at 2pm here in Chile, I have a French test to take...and I am lacking behind in French =.=;;; I have got such low scores there, like terrible, that translates in that I need a really good grade in the exam of tomorrow, grade not much people gets in the class (French is hard here =.=;;;; dunno why so much people here fails it...) so...yeah. A lot depends on this exam, a hell lot. For one, I won't be getting my chef degree, what does that mean?, that I'll have to prolong even more my parents dependance state, living with them and studying maybe another career or the same one in a far more expensive place, which...doesn't look too good, because my mom has been lying to all of my family about my failure, to protect me >>;;; but if I fail, it'll get known and I can expect my whole relatives to turn their backs to me (They are like that, people who has money but don't share and think that everyone should be perfect ><;;; ). Also, if I don't get my degree, I won't be able to get out of Chile and it's underdevelopment >>;;; I hate Chile as a place to work and live, my plans...well, a lot of people knows this already, but in the past, when I was starting in this site, I vowed
Roy that I was going to go to Canada and help him with life, sharing the friend bond we had while I got to get him to his rightful boyfriend (Supposely I was going to help him get a place for both and I would run with the bills and all with my work while we prepared for him to get to his bf), that plan was crushed a long of time ago in the meaning that now I am not going there to help him (He doesn't need the help anyways) but more I am going to go there for myself, to start a life and be happy, as Canada is a place where I can get a MUCH better life than here, in Chile, plus I would be able to finally be able to see snow falling, kinda a dream I have.So I wouldn't be able to get out of Chile for another 2 to 4 years, considering IF I can get to study somthing, because no one is going to help me out of Chile without a degree to help me survive. Also once in Canada, I would be saving money to meet with some people, like the person I love the most,
Nast and some others, so basically my life is going to be pretty much screwed if I fail French ;_;, I...uhh...basically don't think I am going to live much longer if all goes the bad way...I don't think life would be so worth it...Anyways...that's why I have been studying a lot in hopes I pass, fighting with every inch of my body to live and be happy, but it's...way too much info, I have been studying like 4 days straight and I still don't have memorized ALL the info (Like vocabulary in French...I have to learn 20 pages worth of vocabulary for the test ><)
So I am fully stressed, worried, hopeless and all, tired...blah, I just want this all to finish and finish in a GOOD way ><:::. So now I am going to bed, too tired from the travelling (I go to my parents' house to wash clothes, a 2:30 hours trip to their city) and from the studying.
Wish me good luck...for I don't know what will happen to me if I don't make it ><;;;;
Anyways.. goodnight to you all and take care
P.S. Sorry for all, this will be the last time I open so much in "public" =.=;;; but this was important.
EDIT :The exam finished, I am confident I did my best, but I wonder if it was good enough =,=;;;; god....I never saw so many vocabulary questions together...
And try not to think about what would happen if you fail ^^'''' oh noes D: i'm not helping by saying that i'm sorry
Anyways, thank you very much
Also thanks
only that i wish you well and hope you pass everything
Anyway, I wish you nothing but the best luck and hope you succeed.
But thanks shane
Again, I'm rooting for you!
It's definitely a harsh lesson, but hopefully you did good enough on that test to make up for it all and get out just fine. It'd suck if you got kicked out of the school for a year.