Seeking wisdom and advice, please
15 years ago
Now, my main concern right now is me. I really need a career. So far I've been jumping from one job to the next feeling miserable. A friend of mine recently graduated from a Zoo-therapy school and it hit me. I would love to do that. I love people but I hate retail because of the rush and the whack schedules. I love animals but I hate petshops so working there is out of the question. Plus I'd get frustrated with uneducated customers who just don't want to learn. I feel more or less confident that I could be happy doing that ; helping people get better by working with me and my animal with different activities. It's something I've wanted to do with my mascots anyways...
But I'm terrified of going back to school.
What if I flunk? I've always had very good grades in school but I also haven't been to school in 7 years, since I graduated from Cartoon Animation. What if I get the diploma but then fail at finding a job? The class itself is not so incredibly expensive. Total around 6000$. It's money I don't have but money I could borrow at the bank and pay back in a couple of years (5-10 years max IMO). But I'd need to adopt a dog to work with me (which by the way I've been planning on doing in the next 5-10 years anyway so it would merely accelerate the matter), for that I'd need to move (my current landlord does not accept dogs. Maybe it could be discussed but anyway I'm afraid currently the place is too small for 3 cats and a dog) plus afford all the expenses a dog brings with it. Training classes and all.
So it's not 6000$ I'm looking at... It's a much much larger amount.
If I succeed, awesome. It's a job that pays pretty well. I could pay back the bank and handle the expenses ok.
If I fail, though... I'll be buried under debts, have added a dog to my family and have no job or money to pay for it all. Back to horrible little jobs that require no formation other than general, which pay very little and are usually horribly stressful, break down, etc.
It's a very scary jump, I am terrified. What if I have too many issues myself to take care of others? What if in the end I'm just no good? What if I can't find a job after my formation? They say they have a 74% of their students that get jobs. What if I'm in the 26%? What if it ends up like Cartoon Animation, I end up with a diploma that is not worth shit and I just cannot sell myself to the industry and get people to find me appealing and hire me? What if I end up in the same mess I'm in currently but with debts and a dog on top of that?
So I don't know what to do. I'm terrified. If it works it could be absolutely awesome. If it crashes though, it'll be a horrible nightmare. And the situation as it is cannot continue for long either so I have to make a choice...
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But I'm terrified of going back to school.
What if I flunk? I've always had very good grades in school but I also haven't been to school in 7 years, since I graduated from Cartoon Animation. What if I get the diploma but then fail at finding a job? The class itself is not so incredibly expensive. Total around 6000$. It's money I don't have but money I could borrow at the bank and pay back in a couple of years (5-10 years max IMO). But I'd need to adopt a dog to work with me (which by the way I've been planning on doing in the next 5-10 years anyway so it would merely accelerate the matter), for that I'd need to move (my current landlord does not accept dogs. Maybe it could be discussed but anyway I'm afraid currently the place is too small for 3 cats and a dog) plus afford all the expenses a dog brings with it. Training classes and all.
So it's not 6000$ I'm looking at... It's a much much larger amount.
If I succeed, awesome. It's a job that pays pretty well. I could pay back the bank and handle the expenses ok.
If I fail, though... I'll be buried under debts, have added a dog to my family and have no job or money to pay for it all. Back to horrible little jobs that require no formation other than general, which pay very little and are usually horribly stressful, break down, etc.
It's a very scary jump, I am terrified. What if I have too many issues myself to take care of others? What if in the end I'm just no good? What if I can't find a job after my formation? They say they have a 74% of their students that get jobs. What if I'm in the 26%? What if it ends up like Cartoon Animation, I end up with a diploma that is not worth shit and I just cannot sell myself to the industry and get people to find me appealing and hire me? What if I end up in the same mess I'm in currently but with debts and a dog on top of that?
So I don't know what to do. I'm terrified. If it works it could be absolutely awesome. If it crashes though, it'll be a horrible nightmare. And the situation as it is cannot continue for long either so I have to make a choice...
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I mean yea bad things can happen but so can good things
its life.. so live and take chances and things will work out.
the worst life is the life that you never TRIED because you were scared bad things happen
Yeah. Part of me is saying so as well. If I don't try, then it'll never happen for certain while if I try, then it might just work out ok. I wish things would only go back to what they are now if I ever failed at this instead of getting worst, but I might just have to take that risk and see...
If you don't do it you stay stagnant, no chance of gettiing forward, and if you really like that kind of work training for it would be good ... I made the mistake of not going after my choice of work when I was younger and now as I am way older I am not sure I'll ever be able to ...
Ultimately the choice remains your, but life for me is not about playing it safe ...
That's the thing, I don't know yet. I THINK I'd like it enough to want it to be my job, but I will only for certain once I really try it. However by then it'll be too late.
If I would be the only one to suffer through this if things turn bad it wouldn't even be half as bad. But I'll have a dog, 3 cats and a Signficant Other that will pay the price with me if I fail.
...then again you make a point, if I don't try, then I automatically fail...
And what if you succeed? You have a dog that you've wanted for a while and you and s/he go around making people feel better. The school debts go away in due course and the rest if gravy.
The most important question, IMHO, is this; what would prevent you from succeeding? The two most obvious things are never trying and an believing in your own failure. Those are things you can do something about. What else? Not actually liking the job once you're in it? Job-shadow your friend for a day or two and find out for sure if it's something you want. A bigger debt than you'd expected? Talk to a bank loans agent about it; banks are experts at telling whether a loan's likely to be paid off. (If s/he starts looking shifty and talks a lot about collateral, run don't walk your account to another bank.) Not finding an actual job in zoo-therapy? Don't just look at how many therapists are hired, find out who hires them. Go around to a few of those whos, maybe a lot, introduce yourself and your intentions and see if they'll hire you now. (Obviously you won't ask to be paid until you start working, although you might "intern" some weekend hours while training to sweeten the deal for them.) Get your friend to brainstorm some other possible roadblocks and how you might handle them.
Here's a big one; is your reputation bad? There are lots of Furries with good jobs and lots with bad or no jobs. Still, it might not hurt to find out. Tell your school about being Furry, see if they'll still take you as a student; tell your bank manager and see if you can still get a loan. Employers are likely to be even pickier since they're hiring therapists, which is a position of trust. You and I know that just being Furry doesn't take away your integrity or make you dishonest, but do the people who are thinking of hiring you know that? Google your own name and see what citations come up, then look at them as if you were an employer hiring a therapist; would you hire that guy? Write down reasons why you might not, then look at the list; can you convince an employer that those are actually reasons why he should hire you?
...okay, I admit it; if you can, then you probably should go into sales instead. Selling yourself is what getting a job -- any job -- really is. And some people aren't good at it.
Whatever your decision, good luck!
I know the rescue where I plan on getting the dog would take it back if things went sour. It's something I could further discuss with them BEFORE adopting anyway, such as planning ahead in case of accident.
Not trying is the part I'm most afraid of. However this program includes a lot of stuff I need to shake me up such as out of town weekends of intensive classes (up-rooting me is always good since I tend to be nervous about doing stuff like that on my own) as well as internships and such that are part of the course. So I'd be "forced" into developing the skills and contacts I'd need, which we never had in Cartoon Animation so it would probably not be the same.
I'm thankfully not too worried about the furry thing. Around here the term is not that badly known by the general public. I have yet to be yelled "Yiff in Hell!" at when I'm mascotting or anything of the like so I'm not too too worried about it. So far employers have actually been very interested in my costuming work. I also seem to have a very strong charisma as almost everyone at all my retail jobs wanted to work with me. I have yet to pass an interview where I was not hired as well (not true, it happened once, but it was to work in a petshop and I was specialized in dogs and cats and they hired the guy specialized in fish and aquariums because they had plenty of cats and dogs people). So I'm fairly confident that as long as I work for it, I could make this work.
I'm more worried I will fail myself than anything. But as you said, that, at least, is something I can do something about.
One other thing is that people are quick to criticize and slow to credit. You will get probably get a million people saying how awful are the things you do and none with a "good job", "thank you very much for your efforts". The best part of life is to do what you love and get paid for it. And, you only have one try at it.
And the part that is most forgotten is that, you are not alone. There is no need need to carry the burden the success nor the failure alone. Friends are there for a reason, and it would be a better place if we can all help each other. I'll even go one more... ever think of working for the Biodome (or similar place)? Maybe at first you can do some stage work, not as a caretaker, but in marketing and design. You'll get your foot in the door and move up while you study. And perhaps some of my old Engineers still work there.
As for the "good job", a smile on the patient's face is my "good job". :) It's just like when you're mascotting. Your sweating buckets and young teens mock you. But you look at the smile in the face of those who chose to dream and it's such a reward! :) If my patient actually gets better with our help, then it's all the praise I need. :)
I know I'm not alone, that's what's scaring me. :p I'm afraid of dragging Ben down the hole with me... Then again, if he's ready to follow me there, it's not so much of me dragging him. ;)
Since you mention the biodome, I think you confused zoologist with zoo-therapy. I'd be visiting homes and health centers and working on different objectives with the patients depending on their needs. The animal is a tool in this. It's much more fun playing fetch with a dog than doing exercises for your arm. See what I mean? Or when someone is distressed, sometimes it's easier to open your heart to the dog resting his head on your lap than to another human being... That kind of therapy work. :)
In terms of "being a burden to your friends and family", that is sweet but try not to affect your decision too much. The bigger the risk the greater the reward. AND knowing that you may be spending $6000++ AND knowing all the friends that are supporting you AND knowing that this is something you may want to do in life, it'll push you to work hard and pass in the top 74%.
And no, I couldn't really volunteer in a shelter for that, I need a trustworthy and formed and certified dog to work with me and accompany me to visit patients.