It's eating me up inside. Just needed to vent this here.. I don't want to tell him this, but it's really tearing my guts apart. I know he wouldn't approve of this drama and I know you furs out there don't want to hear it... I just, I just needed to express myself to anyone but myself. I mean.. I love him like no other.. And I am fine with being friends... Very close friends like we were a long time ago.. Lately, it's like the expression he gives me isn't as powerful as it once was... I fear I'm gonna lose him for good if I don't do something.. All I can do is wait though, because I want him to be happy. I want him to follow his heart, even if it should so lead away from me. I just.. I want things to go back the way we were when we met.. This is making me tear up just all the time just thinking about. Anyways, that's my blast of drama for the day.