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Fremont Ohio USA
15 years ago
This town is just horribly empty. Theres a constant sense of isolation, dead ends, and just no where, and no one to go to. A suicide inducing place of loneliness.
"Everyday spent here, has been like a lifetime of dieing slowly"
I'd love to meet new friends, but it seems difficult for me. I'm painfully shy, hate working with people I don't know, and usually won't say anything to strangers, unless they say something first. I also tend to look quite weird, so some people kinda just stay away, or look at me funny. Plus every time I start making a new friend, it just ends up falling apart, and never going anywhere. I have a lot of friends, but only 3-4 really close friends, whom I've been close to ever since I met them. Lately though, when I've needed people most, no one is anywhere to be seen (quite often, they make me feel even sadder, and panicked), and it really sucks since I constantly feel lonely, and somewhat suicidal. I'm getting to a point where I want to take off on my bike, and not tell a single soul where I'm going.
I guess next time I see my case manager, I'll go with her original plan of seeing her every week, instead of every two weeks.
:/ I'm not looking for attention, sympathy, ass-patting or whatever, I just need to vent somewhere. Take any bullshitery elsewhere.
"Everyday spent here, has been like a lifetime of dieing slowly"
I'd love to meet new friends, but it seems difficult for me. I'm painfully shy, hate working with people I don't know, and usually won't say anything to strangers, unless they say something first. I also tend to look quite weird, so some people kinda just stay away, or look at me funny. Plus every time I start making a new friend, it just ends up falling apart, and never going anywhere. I have a lot of friends, but only 3-4 really close friends, whom I've been close to ever since I met them. Lately though, when I've needed people most, no one is anywhere to be seen (quite often, they make me feel even sadder, and panicked), and it really sucks since I constantly feel lonely, and somewhat suicidal. I'm getting to a point where I want to take off on my bike, and not tell a single soul where I'm going.
I guess next time I see my case manager, I'll go with her original plan of seeing her every week, instead of every two weeks.
:/ I'm not looking for attention, sympathy, ass-patting or whatever, I just need to vent somewhere. Take any bullshitery elsewhere.
Gnahh...I wish I had a boyfriend in the same town as me XD; usually its always long distance relationships ;3; the only person I ever dated that lived here as well, wrecked my life, and turned out to be a controlling-weirdo-wuss.