with the way things are right now in my life, i just don't see myself doing any new art. sometimes i feel like i want to, but then i get started and get frustrated and just give up. its not drawing that's causing the frustration though. its the things im going through and feeling. i just feel like i lost my spirit, not just for art, pretty much for everything. the things that i once loved doing i don't feel like even bothering with them. it feels like i want to do something and i know what i want to do, and then when i go to do it, i just feel empty. like whats the point?

ive had to deal with depression for half my life at least, but never this bad as its been lately. i just feel alone, and i am alone. there is no one around to talk to except for my doggies. i just want someone to spend time with, but everyone around here is too busy with there own things. anymore i just feel like sleeping most of the time.

~sorry