Aww hun. My sympathies. That's always a hard loss.

Loss is very hard especially of those who were in your life a lot. Talk about it even if you think people done want to hear it anymore. For me the best way of getting over something like a death is to just talk about it and I usually do it a lot. Some people it can take a month or so to get over something, others it can be a few years. For some the hurt goes away mostly but still hangs on for a bit. Take your time, if you get lost in depression just dont lose yourself for too long or too hard. Life continues and your grandad would want you to keep on living. Take your time. It took me several months to get over my dog dying and he wasnt a close blood relative; I dont know what thats like. Put your happy face on when you go out to work or whatnot and if all you do when you come home is cry then do so, there is no shame in it. Talk to a close friend and just explain to them that you dont mean to be "annoying" or "tragic" but that you need them to listen even if its the same thing over and over again because you need someone to listen cause you don't know what to do with yourself over the loss. Get hugs from people as well since that may make you feel less lonely. I'd give you a hug right now if I could. Writing in a notebook or journal or your feelings may help you sort your thoughts out, I do that when my life goes downward. I know I dont know you but note me if you want to talk.

You can always, always talk to me, sweetheart. *clings tight* And you can be "emo" all you want, too.

I think you have a damn good reason to be "emo" right now. :/ I've only handled loss a few times in my life but hurt just like this all the same. I'm not a very good person to talk to for these things though, since I tend to sound lame in an attempt to console, so yeah. Give yourself time to grieve, and then continue with your life, but keep the memories. There are always the memories to help. Their being is never fully gone if you keep those precious moments with you at all times.

Time will make it easier to come to terms with your grief... but instead of letting those memories get you down, you should smile and think back fondly on them. The little things are what we tend to remember the best about other people and I am sure he would want you to remember the good things, the things that make you smile. Sounds like you got to spend some quality time with him and that he has left you a lot of good memories to treasure.

Grieve, but don't forget to think of those small things sometimes that make you smile.