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18 years ago
Okay, so here I am on the computer browsing about. I do that a lot, just going around the internet and doing stuff when I'm bored because everyone in my town acts like the world hates them, or they're 40 years old and cheat on several girlfriends at a time.
So, I spend a lot of time on the computer.
My Step-Dad apparently phoned. He tells my Sister, which, she is true blood with him about us going out on the Weekend to take a 5 hour car drive because she is going to a fucking wedding shower thing with the Bride, and, guess what?
I'M SUPPOSED TO BE GOING ALONG TOO.
So, now I get to stay in this dead end town with /nothing/ to do except sit there and be bored while my Sister gets to go out and do shit. Well, this isn't exactly what pisses me off. What pisses me off the most?
I WASN'T FUCKING TOLD A THING UNTIL THE DAY BEFORE WE LEAVE.
Apparently, I must be some stupid mind reader or someone who fucking loves sitting around the entire house doing nothing but pet a 14 year old golden retriever while it pukes up all the crap that's it's eaten that day because my Grandparents spoil the damn thing.
THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING FOR ME TO DO.
Ontop of that, I'M ALLERGIC TO DOGS. WOW, GREAT GOING WONDERFUL STEP-FATHER WHO I USED TO CONSIDER AS MY REAL FATHER UNTIL YOU DECIDED TO CHEAT ON MY MOTHER, AND THEN TELLING ME WHEN I WAS EIGHT YEARS OLD THAT MY REAL FATHER WENT TO JAIL WITHOUT ASKING MY MOTHER FIRST.
Thanks for slapping me around like some doll, while my Sister got every damn thing without even lifting a finger. Thanks for coming by, telling /only/ my sister this, and then expect that I'll be all happy and willing to go, WHEN I WASN'T EVEN ASKED.
And now, my Mom, was yelling at me over 'How she never gets time alone' and whatever shit. Well, GUESS WHAT. I CLEAN THE ENTIRE FUCKING HOUSE EVERY OTHER DAY. I'VE FOUND THE CONDOMS AND STUPID WARMING LOTION SHIT WHEREVER. Fucking whore. Just as bad as both my Step-Father and Real Dad. Hell, my real dad probably just got fed up like how I AM WITH DEALING WITH ALL THE SHIT YOU WERE TOO LAZY TO DO.
No, I'm not going to say I'm committing suicide or I'm depressed or some shit. I'm going to do what I always do, deal with it until my fucking medication works, that I have to take because both 'parental' figures decided to rape me up the ass with a hotwheels toy car track and past life that I don't remember because I was three months old.
Once my medication works, I'm getting a job, and I'm going to move out. I don't care if I have to share a fucking room with some stranger who likes to make out with pictures of old people, I'm going to move out and screw it. It's not like I'd be any less healthy, considering you decided to waste the money on a new computer yourself, pepsi and other crap, while I had to go ahead and live on Ramen Soup for a good month.
Or, this could be just the medication starting to talk, and I need to contact my Doctor and ask him about the stupid fucking mood swings. Either way, FUCK IT.
So, I spend a lot of time on the computer.
My Step-Dad apparently phoned. He tells my Sister, which, she is true blood with him about us going out on the Weekend to take a 5 hour car drive because she is going to a fucking wedding shower thing with the Bride, and, guess what?
I'M SUPPOSED TO BE GOING ALONG TOO.
So, now I get to stay in this dead end town with /nothing/ to do except sit there and be bored while my Sister gets to go out and do shit. Well, this isn't exactly what pisses me off. What pisses me off the most?
I WASN'T FUCKING TOLD A THING UNTIL THE DAY BEFORE WE LEAVE.
Apparently, I must be some stupid mind reader or someone who fucking loves sitting around the entire house doing nothing but pet a 14 year old golden retriever while it pukes up all the crap that's it's eaten that day because my Grandparents spoil the damn thing.
THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING FOR ME TO DO.
Ontop of that, I'M ALLERGIC TO DOGS. WOW, GREAT GOING WONDERFUL STEP-FATHER WHO I USED TO CONSIDER AS MY REAL FATHER UNTIL YOU DECIDED TO CHEAT ON MY MOTHER, AND THEN TELLING ME WHEN I WAS EIGHT YEARS OLD THAT MY REAL FATHER WENT TO JAIL WITHOUT ASKING MY MOTHER FIRST.
Thanks for slapping me around like some doll, while my Sister got every damn thing without even lifting a finger. Thanks for coming by, telling /only/ my sister this, and then expect that I'll be all happy and willing to go, WHEN I WASN'T EVEN ASKED.
And now, my Mom, was yelling at me over 'How she never gets time alone' and whatever shit. Well, GUESS WHAT. I CLEAN THE ENTIRE FUCKING HOUSE EVERY OTHER DAY. I'VE FOUND THE CONDOMS AND STUPID WARMING LOTION SHIT WHEREVER. Fucking whore. Just as bad as both my Step-Father and Real Dad. Hell, my real dad probably just got fed up like how I AM WITH DEALING WITH ALL THE SHIT YOU WERE TOO LAZY TO DO.
No, I'm not going to say I'm committing suicide or I'm depressed or some shit. I'm going to do what I always do, deal with it until my fucking medication works, that I have to take because both 'parental' figures decided to rape me up the ass with a hotwheels toy car track and past life that I don't remember because I was three months old.
Once my medication works, I'm getting a job, and I'm going to move out. I don't care if I have to share a fucking room with some stranger who likes to make out with pictures of old people, I'm going to move out and screw it. It's not like I'd be any less healthy, considering you decided to waste the money on a new computer yourself, pepsi and other crap, while I had to go ahead and live on Ramen Soup for a good month.
Or, this could be just the medication starting to talk, and I need to contact my Doctor and ask him about the stupid fucking mood swings. Either way, FUCK IT.
