let's see... what can i leave everyone in the dark about THIS time?!

Geeze... i'm sorry you guys... i mean really, is it too much to ask for a little more-semi-frequent-than-bi-anual journal update? no? i didn't think so
*sigh* ugh....
Ok, for one thing, my folks don't like the idea of their kid being any sort of gay...... *facepalm* So, when the found out (yes "found out", not "were told") mom and pop shut me down, utterly ridding my life of any king, shape, or form of technilogical freedom for like, EVER.... i still got around to e-mailing with the most wonder non-bro-but-still-my-bro Hash and a few other things.... but until they cooled off and climbed off my back, i had to lay low for a while...

For another thing, i was too depressed when my folks split me and my Lucas up to do anything to my page at all, or draw or even play music.... But, after a while (about 2 months-ish), i figured i should just move on since there was absolutely no way i'd ever see Lucas again withing the next 3-4 years (mom an' pop had made sure of that. His folks to!), i decided the best thing to do was "move on"... but i still did next to nothing on FA...
...yeah it's not that i COULDN'T... it's just that i didn't really feel like jumping through enormously small rings of fire while carrying an egg in my mouth just to post something i equally didn't feel like telling everyone...

The third thing that has kept from updating myself on FA was my enrollment to SWCU in OK (that's Oklahoma to those of you who might be acrymically chalenged)
OMFG!!!! NEOLAGISM!!! ^
so being in college has kept me busy until..... well until about 09/10/2010, at 20:27 or today of the day i typed this so uh.........

oh yeah! Lucas didn't give up as easily as i did and went to Hash for help! big bro took poor miserable me-deprived Lucas under his huge, warm, feathery, loving arm and talked him through some things. then he gave Lucas my e-mail and we chatted and now we talk on the phone and stuff about what we did while we were apart. it's so great! we have eachother's number's again, we have our own furry facebooks, it's so great being in contact with my mate again. it's even more great to find out that he beat the livving shit out of his paranoia and fear of strangers and randomness to talk with Hash for a month just to say hi to me and let me know he still cares....
*sigh*
..... damn i love him.... and just when i had thought i was over that guy. but then he pop's out of the blue telling me he still loves me and hopes i still love him and alllll the feelings i thought i had forgotten come rushing to the surface like a naruto, wreaking unspeakable havok on my poor little awe-struck dragon mind. apparently i was miserable without him and had just blinded myself to it.

but none of that matters now, we're together now (even though we are approximately 500mi apart) and this time, nomatter what happens, we will never give up on each other. especially me. and come May... or maybe March, we'll get to actually hold eachother again when Lucas comes to visit me in OK from LA (again, for you acronym illiterates, that would be Louisiana) during his senior trip.

as of right now, i could not be any happier <3333
well technically that's not true...... but we'll fix that in May X3

..... or is it March?