i thought about this all day, even tried to write out something nice, but when it comes down to it there's nothing i can write to make it feel any better, or do it any justice. 6 months ago today, Lauren Silikan McDarren Taylor, my truest and closest friend and loved one passed away.

I had a short poem written out, but it's not good enough.
I visited her grave, her mother and her sister.
Sorry CAFA, I found money to visit but I needed this visit more.
There was a lot of things I wish I could say to her, wish we could still do together.

she kept my spirits up when i didn't think i was gonna make it. kept me pushing forward to my goals when i just wanted to be lazy. Sil was the kind of person who if you met, you would never forget. And I believe that growing up with her has been the greatest landmark in my life so far. I will never forget her, i will never not hurt when i think about her and i wouldn't change that for anything.

i don't want to say much else... i feel like i can't fully put to words the person she was. i didn't call anyone today, i didn't message people, i spent the day driving and thinking. if you have a friend you cherish then tell them how much they mean to you, hold them close and always stay in touch. there's no price tag that can be put on a perfect friendship.

i didn't cry today until i checked my facebook when i got home... and it told me to reconnect with my friend lauren taylor. i miss you more than anything in the world.