only got about 2 hours of sleep last night. but did a lot of very heartful and progressive thinking towards my own being and personality. a lot of assessing where i am in life and what i want to accomplish.

thanks all you friends i've been talking about recently, you've put a lot of really helpful thoughts in my head. i noticed that a lot of times i use take myself out of conversations, situations, activities i want to be in from a giant insecurity of how i look and a shyness i've just never been able to shake.
BUT from now on, when i want to jump in a conversation i will (not in an annoying way though)
When I want to go out and do something, I WILL
I refuse to sit on my ass and complain about being bored and not going out and doing anything to remedy this. I can't occupy myself on this damn computer ALL day.
I'm going to work on my art.
I'm going to work on my writing.
I'm going to exercise on a regular schedule, and not just running anymore.
I've gotta start pushing myself instead of relying on other people to drag me along. I'm going to look more towards self motivation and productivity from now on, sometimes you just gotta try and do things alone. not that I don't want to NOT do thing with any of you!! I do, I hope you will all help me when I need it, just some words of encouragement now and then. Keep my morale up. :)

I'm a lucky guy with a lot of great friends, and it took me losing one of the greatest to realize how much they all mean to me. I hope you can all forgive my massive amounts of complaining i have done and will help me in my more positive and jovial pursuit on life! Cause when I'm too tired to do it alone, I'll need y'all to help me up. And when I can't get up, I'll need you to drag me along again :P

<3
Ever YOUR friend
Trav- Kevin.