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I just don't know anymore.
15 years ago
The game has begun.
I just, don't. I saw a foreclosure notice on my table. So I have no idea where I'll be living in the next 3 months. There is also the possibility that I will be moving from Maryalnd to North Carolina. With my mom. JUST my mom. No father/bestfriend. No one to comfort me. I will have to leave behind the life I was just begining to plan for myself. All my friends. My first love. Everything would be taken from me so that my selfish mom can live in the same state as her beloved sister. I would have to start all over. I might seem really whiny, and attention craving, but trust me. I'm the complete opposite. I could give less of a fuck what people think of me. I will always defend my father, hell even my mother to an extent, for how they've provided for me all my life. Living like this has given me such a valuable life lesson. I will be so much more thankful than I ever have for whatever comes my way. I'm trying so hard this year to improve my grades so that I might not have to pay for college. Or at least get money towards it. I just don't know anymore. It seems like I'm getting more and more torn apart each day. My stomach hurts terribly, I have a headache, and I'm crying. I just don't know anymore, I just don't.
Try, just try and look at other options; tell your mum that moving isn't your only one.
Or try persuading her to let you stay with family where you are.
I know how hard it is, to not have a say, it makes you feel so disposable. But, its good that you see yourself as the mast of your future, its good that you recognize you need to work for college, and i know what you can do it. It wont be easy, but its not impossible <3