I don't even know where to begin with this journal. This is going to be sort of a vent for me so I warn you now for something long ahead. As far as my personal life goes, I've started having a underlying sadness that seems to grow a little more each day. I think it's the funk of my life right now. It might not seem like a lot to other people, but to me this is a lot of stress. I've had a boyfriend for about a year and a half now and we have a healthy relationship. I also work at a new job along with him. We work very well together and if there is and head butting at work we will resolve that by the end of the night. I work about 45 hours a week currently and I really deep down don't mind it because it is a good simple job with very chill owners. BUT with all those hours it seems like we barely have any time to ourselves. We want to move out in an apartment but we're just not quite ready. I feel like everyone else has been able to get off work and switch with someone to work and do something fun. Our vacation can't come sooner I can't stand it. I've also felt lonely in a way but also like I have no privacy. We stay in the basement of his family's house and everyone is constantly coming in and out of it and there are no doors or really a room if that makes sense. I also feel like I am not able to see my closer friends due to no license or car, but I'm working on both day to day. I've been trying to think of ways to get out of this mood but I don't have time or the energy.

Another part of this though is this website, FurAffinity. I know the inactivity on my account is entirely my fault. But now I am making an attempt to be back on here and I get nothing. I put up art and ask people for requests and no one even wants my art. I did a fan art just simply because I liked the character that I barely even knew. They didn't even thank me. I know there maybe a handful of you that talk to me and I love and appreciate it. Thank you. But I also feel like a shit artist. I need to see things to inspire me. I need fresh meat in a way haha. But I am trying to make friends on here and be active. I'm trying my best but I feel like there is no real point for me to be here if no one will interact with me.

This is just a short summation of how I've felt lately it feels a little good to just write about it but hopefully some things change. I don't feel like going into full detail unless you would like to talk one on one which would be nice.

I'll post this again but I'm not sure if anyone will reply
**So to kick start my rebellion against my artist block, I decided I would do some art trades or requests (only characters I find most interesting or challenging to recreate). So please post in the comments below reference sheets and or a brief description of how the picture should be.


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Requests:

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