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15 years ago
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So I'm back from Rainfurrest: a smaller local Seattle convention.
I'm sorry I didn't tell anyone I was going to be there. I didn't even know I would be, until Friday evening. I had a panel, but no guarantees I'd show up for anything else...
But I'm glad I did. I had a good convention. It was rough, it was exhilarating, it was amazing. I saw people I hadn't seen in years. I drew more art than I've drawn in years. (Granted, it was two badges and maybe 4 sketchbooks, but that's a lot for me lately.) I went to panels, I did panels, I schmoozed and laughed and hung out.
But it was painful. I hadn't realized how hard it would be to draw again. How much it would hurt to hear the hesitant hope in the voice of friends who were worried about me, but just couldn't pass up the hope that maybe if they asked now, they could finally get some art. How difficult it would be to say no, and how much more difficult it would be to say yes.
And not only that, it HURT. My fibromyalgia has been getting progressively worse, to the point where I cannot physically handle a con. If you were there, maybe you saw me hobbling, leaning on tables, limping and pale.
I heard some rumors while I was there. I heard people think I've left the fandom. That I'm no longer doing furry art. It's not true. It's been a long hard road for me, and furry art has fallen to the wayside. Furry friends have fallen to the wayside. But you are missed. To all the people I saw at the con, I loved every minute of it. To all the people I didn't see, you are in my heart. I want to come back, I will come back...
...I'm just not quite there yet.
By the way, if you were there and I drew something for you, it would be wonderful if you would send me a scan. Not for me, but for the people who want to see it.
I'm sorry I didn't tell anyone I was going to be there. I didn't even know I would be, until Friday evening. I had a panel, but no guarantees I'd show up for anything else...
But I'm glad I did. I had a good convention. It was rough, it was exhilarating, it was amazing. I saw people I hadn't seen in years. I drew more art than I've drawn in years. (Granted, it was two badges and maybe 4 sketchbooks, but that's a lot for me lately.) I went to panels, I did panels, I schmoozed and laughed and hung out.
But it was painful. I hadn't realized how hard it would be to draw again. How much it would hurt to hear the hesitant hope in the voice of friends who were worried about me, but just couldn't pass up the hope that maybe if they asked now, they could finally get some art. How difficult it would be to say no, and how much more difficult it would be to say yes.
And not only that, it HURT. My fibromyalgia has been getting progressively worse, to the point where I cannot physically handle a con. If you were there, maybe you saw me hobbling, leaning on tables, limping and pale.
I heard some rumors while I was there. I heard people think I've left the fandom. That I'm no longer doing furry art. It's not true. It's been a long hard road for me, and furry art has fallen to the wayside. Furry friends have fallen to the wayside. But you are missed. To all the people I saw at the con, I loved every minute of it. To all the people I didn't see, you are in my heart. I want to come back, I will come back...
...I'm just not quite there yet.
By the way, if you were there and I drew something for you, it would be wonderful if you would send me a scan. Not for me, but for the people who want to see it.
I wish you well and I hope that things begin to improve for you. :)
Glad you enjoyed RF!
and i hope you had fun even if it was painful not only cause of the desease but also
.......... because you missed so much in the years of being absent.
Short answer: Maybe. Probably not.
I HAVE missed a lot. There were artists there, even just at that tiny little place, that I'd never heard of that were just amazing. Lots of people had no idea who I was. I can't IMAGINE what I'd see if I went to a larger con. I'd love to meet new people and hang out and art jam and chat and learn and share and and and...
when do you go back to your doctor?
and lastly like i said i hope theres a cure and i will be praying for a cure.
I swear, sometimes this whole thing's so absurd, I have to laugh.
and even if good news is bad hopefully there be something they can due that's better then giving you bad medicine and then forgetting you.
and though this might be the only text conversation for a long while from you. i just so glade to hear from you and to you texting me back just made me so happy.
and i am so sorry i ever thought there was a posability that you left the fandom kasharra :,<
Also... *HUGS*
and i hope you like you gift even with all the flaws that are present...
Then you could also have developed an allergy to gluten, that can be truly crippling and painful.
Whatever the case, I hope they find whatever it is and fix it, hopefully not as scary as fibro, too.
Oh I meant to ask, did you win that pic? And if not, did you snag a print? The artist was in the dealers den, but I never crossed paths with you much to tell you.
You should totally come to Rainfurrest someday. I'm not sure exactly where you are, but I ALWAYS manage to make it to Rainfurrest, even if only for a few hours. It's my home con. Unless I move. Which, if I can't find a cure for this, I might do... There's a lot of fibro in Washington state, and I've heard vague rumors about people moving away and getting better.
Get well soon.
peace be with you missy. i was in the dealers den with tigress84 a lot
Keep in touch.
Ummm, text? I'd say email, but I only check my email on my phone, and it's a bit iffy on receiving EVERYthing.
There's a friend I could get ya' in touch with that's dealing with recovering from same, and did the whole 'sniff this... there, all better for a couple minutes' test as insane/impossible as it sounds. =^.^=
Adrenal fatigue is... well, it's basically all your adrenal chemicals are 'inside normal tolerances' but your body turns out to require abnormal tolerances on one or more of them. IIRC there's 5 sub-components made by the adrenal gland, 3 are life-critical but the other 2 are (or were) considered something everyone's body could naturally compensate for low/high levels of and were almost optional as long as they were present at all.
Either way, it's good to hear an update on your status, and great that it's sounding like a positive update! =^.^=
And if they find something wrong, it means they have somewhere to start on the way to fixing this situation you're in. :) So wrong is good right now.
Really happy to see you drawing again, K'sharra. <3 *hugs* You were one of the artists who got me interested in furry art.
*hugs*
I'm also very sorry to hear about your fibromyalgia, your art is so beautiful, and it's sad that drawing hurts for you now. Is there nothing that could help? Let me know if Doc and I can do anything, even if it's just coming over and jamming for a bit.
Again, it was a pleasure to meet you <3
i'm the noisy one that was behind you ^^;;;
I say first and foremost, take care of yourself first. I can only imagine what life must be like. :/ I'm certain you must get asked this frequently, but how often do you exercise? I saw an interesting article or two that suggest that it might have a great benefit to fibromyalgia. http://www.webmd.com/fibromyalgia/g.....a-and-exercise
I want to suggest helpful things because I hate to see anyone else suffering. It's not just for the sake of art, but more just so you can enjoy day-to-day life. And it would be awesome to meet you some day. :)
I don't exercise really at all right now... I've had so many flare ups, and it takes so much effort for me to get through a day of work, that I have no energy when I get home, and am usually in some degree of pain. I'm thinking about joining a dance class, though, to MAKE myself exercise. It's hard, and I don't really have any support, and it takes most of my self-control to just make it through the day.
I'm pulling bits from the article, and I do apologize if you already know. I'm just hoping something, anything will help you. From the article, basically, exercise can boost endorphins which help symptoms of pain, anxiety, stress, and depression. Exercise also boosts serotonin, which provides a calming, mood-balancing effect and can improve one's mood. It also said "Various factors -- such as sunlight, certain carbohydrate foods, some hormones, and exercise -- can have a positive effect on serotonin." And of course there are a ton of other benefits. :)
The article suggests "aerobic (walking, biking, or swimming) strength training and stretching exercises".
It says that some "low-impact aerobic exercises have been shown to improve symptoms and restore muscle strength", like Yoga, Tai Chi and Pilates. Wikipedia seems to support Tai Chi, too. I can say the few moves from Yoga help me a LOT. I just suffer from stress on occasion, and I get some horribly painful knots in my muscles to the point where I can't fall asleep at night. Yoga really really helps get those knots out. Great stretches. =)
For strength training, there's a bunch of great advice at http://onlinefit.com. Free registration is required, and all you need are some hand weights to get started. There are a lot of great exercises that are easy to do at home. :)
I need to remember that I tend to feel really, really good at the particular moments I'm not exercising...