Yet another weird post from me.

for thows who might not know I have been having slight panic attacks with nothing setting them off lately.

I have herd that the best way of stopping this type of thing is to wright or talk about it and it all so might help people to understand me more so here I go.

i don't know if I should get help or if I should just try and live with it cause I don't want to loose who I am but at the same time I have herd that it might help with my problems of the inability to confront my fears for example when I go in to a social situation I freeze up and sometimes i can accidentally seem like I'm being rude but thats not it at all I'm just .. frightened.

Frightened of offending or being a ... dork or dumb ...to other people.

One thing that gets me down is my bad spelling cause ever scince i was in Pre-School I have been the bottem of the class and I feel frustrated that I cant get it through me thick skull and fix my understanding of spelling and all so Maths.

And when ever I have a chance to go for sompthing good Im afraid that I will brake it or that I'm not good enough for it or her.

i think thats why I talk about naughty things so much cause I dont know what to do or what to say.
I think to much about things I guess the best way to discribe it is everything snowballs in my head.

Lately alot of things are looking up for me and I feel like I shoudent be getting anything but then again I look at other frends of mine and they have a full life mine seems so unacheved if there is sutch a word.

I just hope there is hope for me yet.

Thanks for reading and i hope that in my next post I will be in better spirits.

From: The Stick Master.

PS: Thanks for Replying to my messages Dorian *Hugs* :)