When it comes to not finding yourself trust me, you are hardly the only 19 year old out there like that. It can be really hard to leave the certainty of high school to suddenly find yourself in college or in real life not knowing what the next step is. Your best bet is to talk with folks who are supportive and to make quality friends who can point you in the right direction.

Rather than beating yourself for what you have done wrong look at what you have done right as that is a big first step in making things better and finding focus.