So things are going a little crazy for me right now. Here's the bad stuff: (WARNING! Mildly depressing)

I'm out of food, I have one day-off per week (friday), my desktop computer crashes every time I turn it on, my mom has been swindling money from me, mild insomnia, and I am having some trouble keeping up with school assignments. Mental note, have to visit the museum this week to do a writing about the artworks I find there. Judy Chicago's test plate representations of the vaginas of famous women and some Realist landscape paintings. Living in the city has caused me some serious qaundaries and lifestyle changes. Found myself wondering if it was okay to pee outside. Cavram assures me public urination is frowned upon and I'm inclined to agree with him. But it was night and I was in the back of the parking lot and nooooo one was around, but STILL I had to run back up to the second story apartment to use the bathroom. Gosh the city sucks sometimes, manners in all the wrong places. All the fun of peeing outside removed, but will anyone hold a god damn door open for someone? Hell naw. Also, the change jar I had been keeping at home was stolen from. What could have once funded many an outing to the qaurter-dollar arcades that no longer exist in this area is now nothing but a PENNY jar.

I should really have gotten some homework done this week, but the entirety of my "free day" was spent moving all of my old things into storage. I squandered the rest of the week in lethargy after my classes by beating Dead Rising 2, not knowing so much of my time would be pissed away this week. But I did finish moving my shit out of the house. I hate to throw things away, but I'm going to have to trash a lot of it when I get more free time to do so. I have a terrible memory, and some of those objects I keep are the only links I have to my past, so going through it all to toss it away is really painful. Most of my friends I have left behind, as they are also moving or have moved already. Some nearby family and my two roommates are all the company I have right now, but somehow I have been managing to cope with loneliness much better than I normally do, and I feel better for it. All my online contacts are helping a lot. Thanks guys, you the best :D FA comments keep me social. No romantic interests to speak of and I've sworn off sex until I find a relationship. No more booty calls. That time is really ticking by slow :/

I stashed all of my journals inside the myriad cardboard boxes in the 6x8 space I'm currently paying $30 a month for, so I'm using this as a substitute for my other journal and everyone gets to see :D Sorry for rambling, but I get pretty blabby when away from my journal for too long. Speaking of journals, I no longer live in a place where I feel someone might go through them, so I can stop burning them along with old sketchbooks! That's pretty cool I think. All my old works are stacked up in boxes and bags, and are now clutter. I might start up a little something here soon where I'll mail them out to a few lucky people who want cheap art. I was going to do it at a con but then I realized I had no way to display them discreetly... Anything over 2 years old. Gonna keep the good ones though. If anyone who follows me still remembers Kor-Garl, that is one I refuse to give away. Still one of my favorite inks, founded the principles of my aesthetic regarding outline... and its a bat! A big wonderful hunky one! A lot of other old shit is fair game if I can even find it. I'm sorry to say I used to burn a lot of my stuff :/ Post if interested and maybe I'll arrange a cheap art sale. Ohhhh but I want to burn them. I hate being a pyro sometimes but it gives me the good tinglies.

If it was tldr then fuck you >8( Nah don't feel bad I wouldn't read all this shit either unless there were pretty pictures with it. I'll find my actual journal soon enough, no pressure guys.

But the good news is!!!
Is that despite all the bad shit I'm not feeling all that bad. Overworked, underloved, gotta wake up in 4 hours, doing more art and feeling fine. Go me. Oh yeah, more art soon. Anyone want to see drawings/paintings from class or would that be wasting photos?