i guess i didnt expect anyone from my real life frinds to read my journals lol, i guess they know now how i felt when they were negleting or didn't really pay attention to me for awhile,,they all said..well some said sorry and started to notice how i was feeling, im kind of relieved, and kind of in a better mood now, i still don't ask much, but i just felt i wanted to be noticed a little and to be welcomed again thats all, now that the days go by, some of my frinds come or hang out with me now from time to time, they notced when they were reading this blog from my feelings they had the same situation, that they wanted the way we used to hang out when we met each other, witch were the good old days, so now some of my frinds stoped playing magic to gathering, but they still play from time to time, i wouldn't call it stoped playing magic, but ehh.. at least they stoped neglecting me (lol, i learned a new word), and started to hang out more with me, but , im not in controll of them, they can hang out with me on there own free will now, but at least i don't feel sad now, ^_^




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