*sighs and tries to fight back tears* I hate to post journals like this but i'm going crazy. My Silva, my beautiful loving cat silva may have to be putp down and its about to kill me. About two years ago he had to have a bowelectomy to remove part of his gut so that he could potty and now he ha a blockage. He's my miracle baby. Two years ago x-mas eve he was scheduled to be put down. I cried that entire day thinking my cat was gone. We had gotten a call the next morning saying he was still alive, the veterinarian couldn't put him down because he was nuzzling all over the cage and purring. And we found out one option and that was the bowelectomy. My x-mas miracle kitty.

It seems near x-mas i always have to suffer in some way. Then last year my boyfriend left me (two months later Syden came into my life and he truely makes me happy). We also were nursing three abandoned kittens and two died of pneumonia. That destroyed me, one had died in my arms.

And now this. I don't want to lose my silva. I don't want to have to suffer like that again. Please, whether you believe in god, buddha, allah, whatever, any prayers and thoughts would be appreciated. I would give up everything i own just to save my baby.