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Lazy pirate day (NBPM pt.6)
15 years ago
Set sail in the afternoon!
Got a flu shot yesterday with
semjay. I get allergy shots all the time but this one hurt! It feels like when you get a bruise. Pretty sure it contributed to me feeling shitty this afternoon. I just felt exhausted, and slightly feverish, yet my temperature was normal. Felt better after dinner, though.
We went on an adventure to the other side of town to check out a training facility for Q-dawg. It seems very nice, and would probably be just the thing for the Qoppa-dope. It's just really expensive, of course.
I was feeling very anxious all day. Still am a little. I get so wound up about maximizing my productivity and setting unrealistic goals, that when I inevitably fail to meet them, I beat myself up over it. For example, I try to get as much stuff done during the weekend as possible, because it's the only time I have the energy and concentration to do anything for myself! I'm too burned out after work to do shit, so if anything ever gets done, it's on Saturday. Then if something comes up that diverts my attention, I freak out, because I know it'll never get done, and I have to wait another week for another chance.
It's really not a healthy way to think or live. I just feel paralyzed all the time. Then I blink and three days go by. I'm almost not even kidding. Hopefully when I start my injections I'll be able to do stuff in the afternoons. How did I do it when I lived at home? I worked during semester breaks in a shipping department, packing tools in boxes for 9 hours a day. It was tiring but I still managed to do all sorts of other stuff in my free time. I can never seem to relax, ever!
(Fun fact: I'm posting this stuff daily because I want to use this as a benchmark for how I feel later on. Science!)
Got a flu shot yesterday with
semjay. I get allergy shots all the time but this one hurt! It feels like when you get a bruise. Pretty sure it contributed to me feeling shitty this afternoon. I just felt exhausted, and slightly feverish, yet my temperature was normal. Felt better after dinner, though.We went on an adventure to the other side of town to check out a training facility for Q-dawg. It seems very nice, and would probably be just the thing for the Qoppa-dope. It's just really expensive, of course.
I was feeling very anxious all day. Still am a little. I get so wound up about maximizing my productivity and setting unrealistic goals, that when I inevitably fail to meet them, I beat myself up over it. For example, I try to get as much stuff done during the weekend as possible, because it's the only time I have the energy and concentration to do anything for myself! I'm too burned out after work to do shit, so if anything ever gets done, it's on Saturday. Then if something comes up that diverts my attention, I freak out, because I know it'll never get done, and I have to wait another week for another chance.
It's really not a healthy way to think or live. I just feel paralyzed all the time. Then I blink and three days go by. I'm almost not even kidding. Hopefully when I start my injections I'll be able to do stuff in the afternoons. How did I do it when I lived at home? I worked during semester breaks in a shipping department, packing tools in boxes for 9 hours a day. It was tiring but I still managed to do all sorts of other stuff in my free time. I can never seem to relax, ever!
(Fun fact: I'm posting this stuff daily because I want to use this as a benchmark for how I feel later on. Science!)
