So.. I haven't wanted to say this publicly cause I expect people are just going to laugh at me and point out how much of a loser I am. But..

2 weeks ago, I lost my Job. While I'm not all that afraid of losing my Home, in 3 weeks things are going to change pretty drastically for the negative. Either I'll gain a 4th roommate who I don't, and many of my friends don't get along with to help my roommate stay, or That roommate will leave, and being one of my closest friends, as well as him providing me transportation in many circumstances, Him leaving would be bad.

On top of that, My trust in "friendship" is really starting to wain even further. I was slated to get a Really great job opportunity from a friend. He basically chose to NOT hire me, to a position that doesn't expressly REQUIRE driving. But instead of taking my word that I can take care of what needs to be done, he's decided that I'm a feeble blind man who can't take care of himself. I considered this person one of my best friends. Assumed he was going to fight for me, and believe in my abilities. Instead he's going to not hire me based on my disability. At least he man'd up enough to admit it was his decision to make.

Add that to the other drama that has come up over the last week in my Journal, drama that has Not come up in my journal.. Things are downright exhausting right now.

But at least I'm alive. And while My life may suck... Life itself does not. It is a wonderful beautiful thing to experience. and I'm glad I can experience some of it in the midst of the piles of schit that is upon me.