Just did something I hate myself for but had to be done for the best...ugh, I really do hate that saying "It's for the best.".
Why is it the things that are meant to make things better always feel like they make things much much worse?
We even feel worse as it happens.
For those still not on board, long distance relationship with someone I love dearly but it doesn't seem as if we will be able to close that gap against both our desires for many years....so....ugh

My prognosis?
There is nothing worse than loving someone dearly and even have spent many a day with them in your arms but yet as time passes by, watching and feeling the anxiousness, anger and longing of wanting to be with that person while circumstances and time slowly pull two people who want nothing more than to be together apart.

The only reason I even considered such an option was to eventually stop the pain and keep the tension from turning us against each other, something that was slowly but surely happening and making itself ever-more noticeable as things went on.

I hate myself for it now, and am probably hated for my decision...but ultimately I think it is for the best so that they may focus on school and so that we can push forward with our lives.

I really hope our paths can cross again one day, in the most wonderful of ways....but for now....there's nothing left but to move forward hoping this was for the best...ugh, there it is again.

-Jinx