A couple things
15 years ago
1.) I'm thinking about redesigning Kealldin. Any comments on that? Seriously, its only really short because its quite a simple question to ask!
2.) I think I might have found out exactly what it is I'm lacking in my life -- Not someone to love (though that is still quite a heavy void!). It kinda struck me square in the face when I slipped onto The Black Labyrinth to lurk about again (I'm not comfortable enough to participate).
I need a place to call home!
Well, not a place, per se, but rather, a furry place to actually spend time at. I've always been a drifter when it came to furry places, and I've never stuck around long at one place, so things just aren't very familiar to me, and I never really become 'one of the regulars'. Just another random person who is unknown and unrecognized. I've got my own community I spend time at, but no actual spot to be... well, uh, furry, I guess. *Shrug*
I need to find a place to really settle into and make friends... or make a chatroom for myself for all my friends to join! ...But, really, then the other question arises of -if- anyone would join my chatroom... yeah, better to just settle somewhere else!
So yeah... I am extremely shy in a group setting online. So that means now I need to actually break out and say hi...
3.) I need to learn when I've managed to offend people -- I feel some friends I've alienated pretty hardcore, and I can't figure out what I did. It becomes intimidating to even approach them afterwards, and it kinda hurts.
4.) ...I should really draw more. ...Too many games I'm enjoying recently.
2.) I think I might have found out exactly what it is I'm lacking in my life -- Not someone to love (though that is still quite a heavy void!). It kinda struck me square in the face when I slipped onto The Black Labyrinth to lurk about again (I'm not comfortable enough to participate).
I need a place to call home!
Well, not a place, per se, but rather, a furry place to actually spend time at. I've always been a drifter when it came to furry places, and I've never stuck around long at one place, so things just aren't very familiar to me, and I never really become 'one of the regulars'. Just another random person who is unknown and unrecognized. I've got my own community I spend time at, but no actual spot to be... well, uh, furry, I guess. *Shrug*
I need to find a place to really settle into and make friends... or make a chatroom for myself for all my friends to join! ...But, really, then the other question arises of -if- anyone would join my chatroom... yeah, better to just settle somewhere else!
So yeah... I am extremely shy in a group setting online. So that means now I need to actually break out and say hi...
3.) I need to learn when I've managed to offend people -- I feel some friends I've alienated pretty hardcore, and I can't figure out what I did. It becomes intimidating to even approach them afterwards, and it kinda hurts.
4.) ...I should really draw more. ...Too many games I'm enjoying recently.
2) Finding such places is rarely easy, and can be both a benefit and a hindrance. I first decided to try Ekas, and found it pleasant enough a few years ago. But its sucked up a LOOOT of my life/time now, and its going downhill... At times there are folks there that cheer me up, at times its just frustrating. And its hard to find a place that really suits all your needs and is perfect.
Still... there may be a good place appearing in the next month or two that may be good for ya. Its just secret right now. ;>
3) Such things are usually in your head. As Ive spoken with a number of people about, 'friends' are different now than they used to be. As in before the internet and such things as IMs and social networking sites. You only have 24 hours in a day, and you couldnt spend time with everyone you knew and get close to them all. You woudl have a few close friends and hang out with them most of the time, just meeting others at parties and such. But now you can talk to a hundred people at the same time online, and everyone wants to be close and feel a relationship and all. Its... well, I like to think its not possible, but really its just something that not everyone can manage to do. I cant.
4) If you are enjoying games and having fun, why do you feel the need to draw? Im the same way, I want to draw more, but games are more fun. And I feel you should be enjoying your time, not doing something because you feel you have to.
2. I've never found a furry place to call home. I'm someone who wants a certain amount of conversation to ensue, but that normally makes people shy away. There's also the fact that I'm very particular when it comes to RP anyways! Most people who want a relationship with you are normally just people who want to RP the shit out of you, and when you don't want to, magically sign off.
I'm not sure if a furry-home is what you need to be honest. Perhaps going out and trying to meet some new people to see how that goes?
3. I don't consider someone a friend anyways until I've known them for some time and at least gained some sort of relationship with them. I think it's weird how people will instantly call me a friend. It's like... "But I just met you, literally, not more than two hours ago!" And that's just meeting them ONLINE.
4. And I remember you wanted to have me draw more for some reason. =p Perhaps it's too aggravating for you as well?
their yours.
good luck findin a place bro <33
2. I'm not saying you shouldn't find a place you can belong to, but I have a gripe with communities. My problem is that I don't find I belong anywhere, so I have given up on that. However, the subject never seems to be forgotten as I regularly run into people who belong someplace, be it in an actual, concrete community or a less-defined group of friends. In response to your desire to be a part of a family of like-minded people, you can belong to them however much you want to belong. Do your utmost to contribute to the community in question and you'll be seen as indispensible.
3. I get pretty worked up about hurting people's feelings all the time. I regularly admit mistakes, sometimes to myself, other times I actually tell people I believe I've hurt. Like Onyx stated, it's almost always in your head. A lot of people are more understanding than you might think. If you really need to make amends with somebody, do it. Don't be a flake and not say anything, but get a hold of them, be cordial about your feelings, and most importantly, try not to make them seem like the bad guy. To (temporarily) remedy your paranoia of wronging others, try to be forgiving and forgetful. Reveling on past mistakes ensures that they will haunt you in the future. If someone still has a gripe with you, be a good sport and do your best to resolve the issue.
4. The only way you will be a good illustrator is if you want to be one in the first place. If you find less joy in drawing than in other things, invest your attention and efforts elsewhere. If you absolutely want to draw, don't expect to get things right the first time through. If you settle for lesser quality and accept the outcomes of actualizing your visions, your quality will go up with however much time you commit to drawing. This also applies to any other interests you have. If you cannot accept the shortcomings of your work, you won't enjoy drawing and should therefore, seek other things to be skillful at.
Even the most sage words should be taken with a grain of salt. Take to heart only what you want to.
I'll try to get the Voretex up, and get a community there... but I've fallen into a funk again, and stopped programing >.<
You haven't offended me :>
If you want to draw more, then come draw with me! I need more practice!