So I'm still not well. I'm trying to medicate and sleep to get over this but the chest infection part is driving me nuts and I can't stop coughing my lungs all over the place.

So I try to, y'know, feel better with a couple of sources of rp. Like, the only outlets I have left.

And lately every time I try I'm pretty much left feeling like I'd probably be better off not fucking bothering. Everyone else can rp fine without me there, but the second somebody else in the group leaves IT HAS TO STOP COMPLETELY and everybody goes to bed.

Same group also forgot to tell me they'd jumped back into a previous concept, so I was left hanging for a few days. THANKS GUYS. Or just thanks to the one person that bothered to fucking TELL ME.

Or I just get left wondering what I'm doing wrong to be dumped time and time again.

As I'm ill, I like the one or two things that are kind of puttering along (in some cases it's puttering, in others it's more half abandoned) and they cheer me up.

But no. I shouldn't bother trying to enjoy myself because apparently it's bad to want to have fun/cheer yourself up when you're sick. God forbid I try to cheer people up when they're under the weather.

Basically I just want to have fun but all the people I have fun with just don't want to know, it seems. It feels great to be The Least Interesting Thing On The Planet.