I chose to not have a girlfriend. If you choose to lose a friend, or even, make an enemy out of me then FINE. Why am I even TRYING to be nice and social? This is exactly why we didn't work out. By default its easyer for you to be angry or hurtful to protect yourself. By default its easyer for me to avoid being around just that. What do you have to gain by kicking me around until March? You want to know what the therapest said on our 1:1? She said I need to learn to be more angry. To stop hiding my feelings and to stop bottling things up. Is theat what you want? I'm trying to be social roommates. You want to kick my ass and make me look like an asshole in front of everybody, at work even, like Melody. Trying to be nice... You were nice to me when you wanted a ride to the store, granted you made me feel like shit the whole fucking time. Is this your revenge? Are you being a vengeful person? Because that's the spirit. Keep it up. That's the exact same attitude that made me walk out to begin with. Feel free to continue to renew my faith in your ability to hurt me as you see fit, whenever or wherever, so easyly. Walking all over me.


~cell phone text to MYSELF that... I still don't have the courage to send to HER...