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Weekend of fun
18 years ago
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Welp, the labor day holiday is over and I'm offically happy/frustrated... Lets see.. it started with me and my gf and her friends supposed to be going to New Orleans... Well.. that didn't go over too well. Meg and her bff got into a BIG fight and now don't know if they'll be friends or not. Since Meg was upset, it got me upset. And since I had alcohol nearby... errr.. lets jus say I drank for the first time around her. THAT was on saturday night. One Sunday, we got invited to a good friend's 23rd b-day party (more alcohol). And seeing meg even more upset, me and her drank again and went completely EMO on everyone. lol They didn't know what to do with us. XD But I did get very spoiled in those two days. I got to sleep with my baby and was very lonely last night when I had to go home and sleep alone... I enjoyed spending time with Meg. But she had a point, if we lived together, we'd never get anything done. lol
Me and her both ended up confessing to one another. I love the girl. And I told her in my drunken stupor. I was too scared to admit it to her while sober. But I'm happy we've both got that off our chest now. It's... well, I'm not sure what the word is for it really.. T_T I'm still scared to tell my parents tho. But i'm gonna listen to my bro on that and not tell them. They'd make my life a living hell and/or kick me out. I have no where else to go and I do NOT want to intrude on Meg and her mom...
Anyway.. what ever. I don't plan on telling them unless they approach me with it. *shrug* Altho, i think they might be suspecting something.. I mean who "spends the night with their best friend" and comes home with hickeys..? lol
Me and her both ended up confessing to one another. I love the girl. And I told her in my drunken stupor. I was too scared to admit it to her while sober. But I'm happy we've both got that off our chest now. It's... well, I'm not sure what the word is for it really.. T_T I'm still scared to tell my parents tho. But i'm gonna listen to my bro on that and not tell them. They'd make my life a living hell and/or kick me out. I have no where else to go and I do NOT want to intrude on Meg and her mom...
Anyway.. what ever. I don't plan on telling them unless they approach me with it. *shrug* Altho, i think they might be suspecting something.. I mean who "spends the night with their best friend" and comes home with hickeys..? lol
Flatrat
~flatrat
Your brother's right!!! Don't tell them and deny EVERYTHING!!! (Don't let yourself be cross-examined into an admission either!!!)
Raney_Lee
~raneylee
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I think my mom knows... Ms. Karen is my boss. Chris was my sis' ex-boyfriend/husband. And I work at a fast food place. She told me "I know you love her, but Ms. Karen won't want her up there all the time. She got onto your sister about Chris being up there all the time." So I think she knows. I jus wish she'd tell me she knew damnit!
Flatrat
~flatrat
Hummm...I can't make anything out of those comments. Just the same, and in spite of what you "think", anyone knows, don't say anything that would give yourself away to anyone and, another thing, don't feel guilty that someone you may care about doesn't know your "secret". The bottom line is it's, really, none of their business and, whatever you think the consequences might or might not be, it's better to avoid it all together if you can. (meaning that, almost certainly, the effect of any admission on your part will be bad)
Raney_Lee
~raneylee
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yeah, you're right.. it's just eating at me.. *sigh* I know I can't tell them and I wont. Let them figure it out for themselves and come to me with it. Hopefully they'll be accepting of me. My dad did tell me the worst any of us kids have done is my sister's mistake. *shrug* But if I'm happy, I don't see why it should matter to them who I'm with. I love that girl and I'd do anything for her. Thanks to alcohol (since we were both scared to confess while sober) we told each other how we really feel for each other. And I'm at so much peace around her. It seems like the world could die off but it wouldn't effect me cause I'm with her.
Flatrat
~flatrat
Well, that's what's important, after all, and the really sad thing is that all the bad fallout that can come from you admitting your orientation to someone you care about, or that same person challenging you to answer the question, is coming from the "poison" we've all been indoctrinated with all our (and their) lives!! These "lies", are what they're trying to trap and condemn you with and you don't owe it to ANYONE to let them do it for their own satisfaction!
Raney_Lee
~raneylee
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yeah... but blame society... Its the society who puts in our brains who they believe who we should and should not be with. and it jus annoys the likving shit outta me.. *sighs*
