Now maybe this is just me being a pessimistic douche-bag, but for some reason I think saying "Happy New Year" is kinda silly and redundant.

If you really stop and think about it, telling somebody to have a "Happy New Year" is kinda like saying "be happy for the entire year" when you and they both know that they're probably incapable of being happy for, literally, the entire year. At that point it becomes arbitrary to tell them that they should be happy for the whole year, but this is all under the presumption that one is 'telling' them to have a happy new year, rather than 'wishing' it for them, which is the context everyone uses, of course. The wording of "Have a happy new year" still sounds more like an order than a wish, though, at least on paper.

Maybe it's just because I've been in a somewhat depressed mood as of late, stuck with my parents in their god-aweful house, filled with all their crap that my Dad is too lazy to finish cleaning up and my Mom refuses to knuckle down and make him work on cleaning up (with out giving up shortly after, at least). My living situation is shitty, and I miss having my own place. At the same time, though, I know there are plenty others with much worse living situations; not everyone has parents to live with after losing their apartment like I did. However, that of course doesn't change the fact that I'm still grossly unsatisfied by the whole situation.

Maybe the reason I hate people wishing me a happy new year is because I know this year isn't going to be any better than last. My only hope of moving out of my parents house lies with moving out of the city, quitting my job and being unable to finish school without driving like 90 minutes to Downtown Louisville. And again I realize that there's a lot of other people that are worse off than me :c I also hate it when people tell me that. I'm not contrived enough to take solace in the thought of other people in more pain than me. That doesn't fix my pain.

But all of this said, it's probably just me being a depressed little bitchy wimp xp My mood will shift eventually I think. Need to do something fun. At least I am thankful for the friends I have to hang out with.

I hope everyone has an adequately happier new year this year than their previous years. I'm just not convinced mine will be, but we'll see <3