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15 years ago
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Hi everyone.
Today's my birthday, and I'm continuing the tradition of using these journals to reflect on the previous year.
January and February was a technological apocalypse. So many components failing at once, it's like I got all my bad luck at the same time. That really nixed my funds, and I found it difficult to recover financially from that.
In March I officially went into depression (cue mad as a March hare similie). It took around six months to get out of, and I think the antidepressants didn't help. It wasn't clinical depression, it was reactive from being continually unsuccessful professionally. The solution lied in trying to operate as an individual rather than a team of 30 people. The Pygmalion effect has it in for me (it's all self-inflicted though).
A few months ago I came to a resolution with my business, finally finishing development of a product. It hasn't been released yet due to some technical issues, but the IRS hasn't got back to me regarding the double tax treaty anyway.
I had to give up on mental ray. After the months of work I put into getting fur to work in it, I came to the conclusion that the scope I want to achieve (i.e. animations) can't be done with the technology I've got, in a reasonable timeframe. It's a shame to shelf this technology now, but it may be useful in the future, and I very quickly discovered and applied some workarounds to mitigate the loss of features.
I finished creating Brooke, and with her, the framework I've built up that allows me to recombine new characters with the same basic model. It took so long! But finally, I can usher in a new personal era of furry art. In mere days I updated Bridgett (who is now on version 3 if anyone's counting) in mere days, to work with the new system. There are some hiccups regarding merging her, but every single thing I do in 3D, without fail, never goes to plan. Ever. This is a no-fuckups estimate, but I should be able to create new characters in weeks rather than several months! My commission rates have therefore dropped a lot, but they're currently closed as I have trades for friends.
The year ahead is looking much better. Professionally and personally. My profession's looking up because I'll be trading soon. The framework I built will allow me to actually produce some art for a change! I'm also really looking forward to being able to create more characters - it feels like the main way in which I'm stifled by my medium. 2011 is looking great.
Summary
Bad Things
Forked out hundreds on replacement parts
Depression
Lost productivity due to depression (resulting in compound depression)
Gave up on mental ray (don't have a render farm)
Lost track of Flying Toasters Remake (I will return to this!)
Good Things
Survived a suicidal mindset
Finished my first product, however miniscule
Created Brooke
Perfected Rapid Workflow
2011 Opportunities
At least SIX new characters in the making!
More frequent art due to pre production shrinkage!
Professional victory!
Brooke & Shawn's Outdoor BJ animation!
Eva & Tachyon's romantic sex scene!
Today's my birthday, and I'm continuing the tradition of using these journals to reflect on the previous year.
January and February was a technological apocalypse. So many components failing at once, it's like I got all my bad luck at the same time. That really nixed my funds, and I found it difficult to recover financially from that.
In March I officially went into depression (cue mad as a March hare similie). It took around six months to get out of, and I think the antidepressants didn't help. It wasn't clinical depression, it was reactive from being continually unsuccessful professionally. The solution lied in trying to operate as an individual rather than a team of 30 people. The Pygmalion effect has it in for me (it's all self-inflicted though).
A few months ago I came to a resolution with my business, finally finishing development of a product. It hasn't been released yet due to some technical issues, but the IRS hasn't got back to me regarding the double tax treaty anyway.
I had to give up on mental ray. After the months of work I put into getting fur to work in it, I came to the conclusion that the scope I want to achieve (i.e. animations) can't be done with the technology I've got, in a reasonable timeframe. It's a shame to shelf this technology now, but it may be useful in the future, and I very quickly discovered and applied some workarounds to mitigate the loss of features.
I finished creating Brooke, and with her, the framework I've built up that allows me to recombine new characters with the same basic model. It took so long! But finally, I can usher in a new personal era of furry art. In mere days I updated Bridgett (who is now on version 3 if anyone's counting) in mere days, to work with the new system. There are some hiccups regarding merging her, but every single thing I do in 3D, without fail, never goes to plan. Ever. This is a no-fuckups estimate, but I should be able to create new characters in weeks rather than several months! My commission rates have therefore dropped a lot, but they're currently closed as I have trades for friends.
The year ahead is looking much better. Professionally and personally. My profession's looking up because I'll be trading soon. The framework I built will allow me to actually produce some art for a change! I'm also really looking forward to being able to create more characters - it feels like the main way in which I'm stifled by my medium. 2011 is looking great.
Summary
Bad Things
Forked out hundreds on replacement parts
Depression
Lost productivity due to depression (resulting in compound depression)
Gave up on mental ray (don't have a render farm)
Lost track of Flying Toasters Remake (I will return to this!)
Good Things
Survived a suicidal mindset
Finished my first product, however miniscule
Created Brooke
Perfected Rapid Workflow
2011 Opportunities
At least SIX new characters in the making!
More frequent art due to pre production shrinkage!
Professional victory!
Brooke & Shawn's Outdoor BJ animation!
Eva & Tachyon's romantic sex scene!
i hope you have may more birfdays in your future
And congradulations on working to overcome hte difficulties you've had to deal with. I wish you best with your sucess, both personal and professional, and eagerly await being able to see further projects (0.0)b
Seriously: wishing you the best for 2011. Have some "coffee"