Never typed on this thing before so here we go!!!!!. Today could be the start of a new life for this ol Wolf. For the last 6 years as many of you know I have been running a concrete plant at Ulladulla on the NSW South Coast, and for the last 6 years I have been slowly losing my sanity. At the end of 2010 it got to the stage that I would return home from that place each afternoon and fall into the loving arms of my Roo in floods of tears caused by an overload of anxiety and resentment about this work place (thank God for Spence) he always managed to make me smile a little and re-assure me that one day I would get out of there. I suppose 6 years of waking up at 5 00 and starting each day with anxiety and fear has finally taken its toll. I always come across as a strong happy-go-lucky K9 but the Jeckyl and Hyde in me has enabled me to do so around my furry friends, when deep down inside I am an absolute mess (commonly known as living in a permanent rock bottom). I can't do this anymore. This afternoon I have a job interview for a position in my much preferred experienced occupation as a gardener / horticulturalist and am certainly keeping my claws crossed for a positive outcome as tomorrow I have to return to the gates of hell and let myself back in. Here's hoping aye!. It would be nice to be genuinely happy and positive once again as it has been a very long time. Love yas all. BC Wolf.