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We all have desires...
15 years ago
We all have desires... whether we know them or not, speak them out loud to others or keep them inside. I realize that as I grew up I thought the best of others, I saw those who were good people and bad and it was so black and white. Now that I am at a point in my life where I expected the bullies to be purged from society, it seems they are just smarter more insecure and scared.
As I sat at my desk today, doing little because I work for people with no real plan for the future let alone business sense I thought to myself, is everywhere the same? Is there no company where politics and separation is put aside for progress or at the very least happiness? Is enough ever enough for people? Or do we all live with insatiable desires to expand our horizons and grow without a care in the world for others? When is putting yourself before others wrong?
As I sat in my chair listening to muse quietly today I could not help but sit on a singular song. I do this often, I listen to a song seeking to understand it, to explores its contents and how it relates, kind of like opening a fortune cookie but pleasing to the senses. I sat today and listened to this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R8OO.....U&ob=av3el
The song's lyrics are powerful, the use of odd instrumentation provides for a unique sound, but mostly the song as a whole inspires thoughts of things both old and new. In excitement to get the copies of the manga "Berserk" that I ordered, I realized the song matches two of the main characters. The song reflects upon parts of my life, and questions my future. I hope that I never fall to the point where I hold back from life, I never fall to the point where my desires are held back by fear. But I will never ever willingly harm another to bring forward my desires. We all have dreams, however unclear and uncertain, my dream is to live happily and protect those I love, take care of them. I have meet so many people and its hard to retain that care of all of them but I will try. In the end I will try my hardest to take care of those I care about, and when I finally reach a point where I can, it will be enough and I will have no need to extend beyond it greedily.
As I sat at my desk today, doing little because I work for people with no real plan for the future let alone business sense I thought to myself, is everywhere the same? Is there no company where politics and separation is put aside for progress or at the very least happiness? Is enough ever enough for people? Or do we all live with insatiable desires to expand our horizons and grow without a care in the world for others? When is putting yourself before others wrong?
As I sat in my chair listening to muse quietly today I could not help but sit on a singular song. I do this often, I listen to a song seeking to understand it, to explores its contents and how it relates, kind of like opening a fortune cookie but pleasing to the senses. I sat today and listened to this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R8OO.....U&ob=av3el
The song's lyrics are powerful, the use of odd instrumentation provides for a unique sound, but mostly the song as a whole inspires thoughts of things both old and new. In excitement to get the copies of the manga "Berserk" that I ordered, I realized the song matches two of the main characters. The song reflects upon parts of my life, and questions my future. I hope that I never fall to the point where I hold back from life, I never fall to the point where my desires are held back by fear. But I will never ever willingly harm another to bring forward my desires. We all have dreams, however unclear and uncertain, my dream is to live happily and protect those I love, take care of them. I have meet so many people and its hard to retain that care of all of them but I will try. In the end I will try my hardest to take care of those I care about, and when I finally reach a point where I can, it will be enough and I will have no need to extend beyond it greedily.
I put forth this post because recently I was double-crossed by a former boss of mine, who while he was a boss asked me to do unethical and illegal things at my company. While I tried with all my effort to not do them, even to the point of getting in trouble, and watching him do unethical things, when I finally confronted him about it I realized that he didn't care. He believed himself to be such a holier than though person who "cares" about his employees and who "goes to church and loves god". I realized that day that nothing, not the military or religion or even special raising makes people better or worse than others, rather its your morals at the very core of who you are that will always let you choose the right decision.
I don't know what to think of those who would put number one before the well being of others in reasonable positions. I'm not talking about compassion for a murderer, I'm talking every day life, those who lie and cheat, run political bullshit and use and abuse others to achieve their goals are living up to a dream that they could never reach on their own because they are cowards. For all of this, I am glad that I have never willingly tried to undercut others or been unethical in my actions.
So your another person who has awoken. As it were