Tonight Jon told me that... that he's sure I'm the one. That he wants to spend the rest of his life with me and he's determined to work until we can reach that goal.

I have something to work towards. Something to live for. I've never felt this strongly for anyone or anything. I promised myself long ago that I would never give everything I am to another person again after a certain someone broke my heart, but unlike the others he WANTS everything I am. He's willing to accept my flaws and even love me more because of them. The millions of things wrong with me that I see don't exist to him... he legitimately loves me for who and what I am. Something I honestly thought no other human being could do. I finally have the confidence in myself to believe it now.

I love Jon Harrison with all my heart and soul and he's taught me how to love myself as well. Remember all those journals I posted months back about finding where I really belong? Well, I've found it and I didn't even have to leave home. Wherever he is is where I belong.

Also, to people I owe stuff to, I am sorry, but my laptop is broken and I no longer have access to ANYTHING. I'm actually sneaking internet time ATM. It's been a very long time waiting for some of you and I am honestly quite ready to start offering refunds as soon as I start my job. I've left some of you hanging for over a year and that's absolutely unacceptable.