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15 years ago
Man desire individuality yet world desire equality. I just love the irony The venting is really good. I really need that. I can think clearer now.
I just want to make sure who I am or still is. Ben carried away too much I have lose sight of what I want and who I am. Like a song that never reach crescendo. The pressure just built in. Too many voices telling who I should and should not be. Or maybe not enough that I heard. Still in the end I still am the one who hold the rein. Why to be sway by the shadows which will gone in a moment. As memories of man are just like the morning mist *laugh*
Yet I know they said it because they too are worried about me for that I was really grateful. As long as I am happy.. I don't think people will need to tell me what I should do. I am sorry. I had overslept. But silly things is that I thought I should be with friends when i had free time. To stay with them to be there for everyone. To show them how each of them meant to me. Yet also because of that I was suffer in my own meaningless guilt. I was truly an idiot. No one need anyone. We all are just a person. I just had to do my best and wish the smiles always be on their faces. I really love you guys.. Thank you. Without any of you. I don't think I could ever truly know myself.
and in this occasion I would like to say that what is emo? is being able to cry as we want and laugh as we like is it? or the one that cannot get out from the sadness and despair is? How frivolous to have given someone a label. I don't judge anyone and I don't like to be judge. At least I try to my very best haha. I love you all even though you sometimes don't talk, you act rude or just being yourself. I just sometimes ask for the same treatment I had given people. Well when we are nice to people don't we ask for some too? hehe
I really like to bear upon stuff which isn't my fault. Even when people seems cold to me I always thought if it's because of me.
I wish I can always feeling like this and remembers all I had learn here... my next test in life is now at hand. As I had chosen life I wish to truly live it. I wish to say more but due to my limited brain that will have to be next time.
I just want to make sure who I am or still is. Ben carried away too much I have lose sight of what I want and who I am. Like a song that never reach crescendo. The pressure just built in. Too many voices telling who I should and should not be. Or maybe not enough that I heard. Still in the end I still am the one who hold the rein. Why to be sway by the shadows which will gone in a moment. As memories of man are just like the morning mist *laugh*
Yet I know they said it because they too are worried about me for that I was really grateful. As long as I am happy.. I don't think people will need to tell me what I should do. I am sorry. I had overslept. But silly things is that I thought I should be with friends when i had free time. To stay with them to be there for everyone. To show them how each of them meant to me. Yet also because of that I was suffer in my own meaningless guilt. I was truly an idiot. No one need anyone. We all are just a person. I just had to do my best and wish the smiles always be on their faces. I really love you guys.. Thank you. Without any of you. I don't think I could ever truly know myself.
and in this occasion I would like to say that what is emo? is being able to cry as we want and laugh as we like is it? or the one that cannot get out from the sadness and despair is? How frivolous to have given someone a label. I don't judge anyone and I don't like to be judge. At least I try to my very best haha. I love you all even though you sometimes don't talk, you act rude or just being yourself. I just sometimes ask for the same treatment I had given people. Well when we are nice to people don't we ask for some too? hehe
I really like to bear upon stuff which isn't my fault. Even when people seems cold to me I always thought if it's because of me.
I wish I can always feeling like this and remembers all I had learn here... my next test in life is now at hand. As I had chosen life I wish to truly live it. I wish to say more but due to my limited brain that will have to be next time.
Be only who you want to be, and don't listen to others. Emo origins from a music soft rock genre of which the fans developed trends and diffused from its origins context to sadness, weakness, and emotional unbalance in a falsified darkness. Such a term as you being older should be ignored and you need to walk over. You shouldn’t care what others think and things that don't attest to you. Online is a different place, there is distance and nonconnections. People only care to a certain extant of the strangers in an online community.
Malkheus
~malkheus
OP
Yeah... and I just take friends I had here the same as my friends in real life. Maybe that's already too serious. But can't emotion be travel that far? is online people are just masked? I was a bit tired of it all. But even so I cannot stop myself to care too much about those I called friend. But at the same time I hope they will reciprocate it. I just wish I can stop creating this dilemma..
All that is up to you.
Malkheus
~malkheus
OP
Yeah. I just want to know how I can stop myself.
Malkheus
~malkheus
OP
and thanks to have read and listen.
