Putting things together... I am fairly happy these days, and not in the jittery jovial fortitude, but rather the content quiet that I have come to enjoy so well in my spare time. I tend to rush the need to have problems taken care of immediately, and have come through a lot. The only problem that really tends to itch at my sides like a bad rash tends to be the lack of motivation I have with problems of the heart, both biological and emotional.. its a very peculiar situation I have, because most individuals that I speak to ask if I am either depressed or stoned at first glance, because of the odd numbing sensation I tend to place on myself to keep myself cool in the head. It is particularly peculiar to others that I am able to use different cognitive techniques to achieve one of three affects against certain situations, namely what I have recorded and subjected to be attained as apathy to, enthusiasm to, and anger to. I am told daily not to judge individuals, which I can see destroys one of the fundamentals of American society in many senses, but that does that mean we truly all have to be open minded? I do care, and I tend to be controlling when the situation presented does not make me comfortable with it. However, when I do not care it is as though, from the observations I have gathered from others... I seem insane. I wonder what your opinions are on this matter..