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18 years ago
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I dont think anyone reads this journal, but anyway..
Ive been on sick leave from work, since around may-june time, I had finally got myself to a doctor to sort out my depression - ive had it since i was a teenager, i thought i could handle it but its got worse an worse over time.
I do feel better in myself, more calm then i used to be.. but i still don't feel im over my depression yet, i get good days an bad days, somtimes feeling very small an lonely. I guess i need to learn to cope, an get on with everyday things now.
I think my anxeity is now getting to me in dream form, ive noticed my dreams are more about things i worry about an such, i frequently wake somtimes an i am completly confused, takes alittle time before my grip on reality returns.
I was in a london hotel recently, one night was quite freaky, im sure i must of been dreaming.. in my dream? i was in the hotel bed trying to sleep, but i kept opening my eyes an looking at a mirror on the door on the room i was in, an see'ing my reflection, i also felt sombody stroking my hair an felt a weight as if sombody had sat down next to me, at this point i freaked an shouted out, jolting into full consiousness, funny thing is i dont know why i thought there was a mirrior on the door since there was no mirror there. .. wierd dreams.
I must go soon, im starting a new college course today - graphic media an communtication .
im very nervous, im probelly going to be the oldest one in the class to. i better get my stuff together - wish me luck.
Thankyou for the kind words, i appriciate it :)
oh i got alittle link here of my youtube account if you wish to view my - very poor music vidios
lol.. they do give you a view of my Second life Avatars through ^.^
http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=shorty191
Ive been on sick leave from work, since around may-june time, I had finally got myself to a doctor to sort out my depression - ive had it since i was a teenager, i thought i could handle it but its got worse an worse over time.
I do feel better in myself, more calm then i used to be.. but i still don't feel im over my depression yet, i get good days an bad days, somtimes feeling very small an lonely. I guess i need to learn to cope, an get on with everyday things now.
I think my anxeity is now getting to me in dream form, ive noticed my dreams are more about things i worry about an such, i frequently wake somtimes an i am completly confused, takes alittle time before my grip on reality returns.
I was in a london hotel recently, one night was quite freaky, im sure i must of been dreaming.. in my dream? i was in the hotel bed trying to sleep, but i kept opening my eyes an looking at a mirror on the door on the room i was in, an see'ing my reflection, i also felt sombody stroking my hair an felt a weight as if sombody had sat down next to me, at this point i freaked an shouted out, jolting into full consiousness, funny thing is i dont know why i thought there was a mirrior on the door since there was no mirror there. .. wierd dreams.
I must go soon, im starting a new college course today - graphic media an communtication .
im very nervous, im probelly going to be the oldest one in the class to. i better get my stuff together - wish me luck.
Thankyou for the kind words, i appriciate it :)
oh i got alittle link here of my youtube account if you wish to view my - very poor music vidios
lol.. they do give you a view of my Second life Avatars through ^.^
http://www.youtube.com/profile?user=shorty191
*sends you a big hug to make you feel better*