I wanted to get this off my chest somehow, crying wasn't enough, and everyone likes to hear someone tell you you can pull through. I broke up with my bf of 2 years, tomorrow, Jan 30th would have been our anniversary, for 2 years of being together.

This has been coming for the last 2 months, with our recent schedule changes, no more waking up to each other, no more talking all the time, if anything we barely could squeeze speaking for an hour. I broke down today on him when he acted out, it was pretty much the last straw for me.

I can tolerate his schedule, and his new life changes, and I can tolerate just so much of his negligence to me, but not anymore. Quite frankly I'm fed up with being the blame for our inability to be around each other more. Yet even with this, he makes me feel like I'm to blame for entertaining myself with other people when he can barely manage to try to be around me.

We have tried breaking up before, but always ended up back together, we really are meant for each other in a twisted way, as many people have pointed out, I have a want to be babied and accompanied constantly, which he always does, and he has a want to control and possess everything, which I comply to for him.

We had an amazing two years, I've really never been in a happier relationship then when I was with him, but I hope I have more from someone else. He still will be the sweetest and smartest person I've ever met and been lucky enough to be with (despite his flaws, but we all have those.)

I know I still love him, I most likely won't forget him, and I wouldn't want to.

Here's to getting better, I hope I do<3 ilubumbi p+h