Sounds like a writer's mind to me.

I once saw it written in an article/interview with several writers that "A writer must be able to look at his work and believe two things. One this is the best thing I've ever written. Two this is the worst thing I've ever written." If you can believe both of those about the same item-you are a writer.

Give it a try. Even if you keep it to you. You know as well as I do if the characters want to get back to work they will keep hounding you until you submit. Now I don't mind when my characters argue with me, but it is unsettling when they win.

They definately been hounding me... for years. I'm the kind who doesn't like not being able to do something I set my mind to and I am always daydreaming about situations and such.

I think that's a clear sign you should give it a shot. You've yet to stop talking about them and discussing how they'd act on various events and circumstances. They want to be read!

That's part of the problem I have. On one hand I know I have the want and desire to do it. I don't think I could handle the let down again. On the other hand I'll be tormented all over hell and back if I don't try. The only way to find relief is to succeed which... I have serious doubts about being able to do.

No one seriously put their heart into anything without worry of failure, but you shouldn't allow yourself to be paralyzed from it. Don't even concern yourself with it until after it's written. The first step is always the hardest, but the more you write, the more confident you'll get. From the sound of things, you have far more to lose by not trying.

What he said!

The wheels are always turning. It's kinda a curse. The desire to do something and know that odds are it would fail.

i'd love to read anything u wrote hon

It was painful for me to read. I just can't stop dreamin' about it all.

u know there are a few of us in ur corner hon

What Angel said. Think of it as practice. Jules Verne wasnt an instant success with his first writing.

I spent two decades working on it all, and to just stop is hard, but to not have the heart to keep going is hard.

just write. really. just write and let it flow and be.